Last refuge

Slam the door to show her she can't get your guard down Take the dog for a walk to the dirty brown dam Climb up on the bank, see ducks fly away A duckling's left behind to find its own way Sit down on a sleeper, throwing sticks for the dog He won't go in the water, he always backs off Rustle and a scrape, he brings another stick Try to think of good things but you feel so sick There's things on the horizon you don't wanna see Things on the horizon you don't wanna be Mother says it's time to put your dolls behind Learn to be a woman, to grow into your life This is the last refuge, the last refuge, the last refuge There's a new day coming, you like the one you got There's a new day coming, you'd rather it was not Every day she's up on you, you have to shut her down Every day it would be easier if you weren't around You watch it getting darker, feel the cold coming down Magpies call, sticks falling on the ground The swerving lights of the boys coming home Hear the car door slam, the round lights glow Then the dog takes of, you're sitting in the cool Pull another fingernail, watch the blood pool On the white of your skin, the white in your mind It's getting so hard to find a way to stay behind In this last refuge, this last refuge, the last refuge Then your mum calls out come home for some tea Turn toward the house, toward the misery You wanna find that duckling swimming round and round alone More in common with you than your family at home Turn back to the gumtrees and the days last sigh A jagged strip of light along the jagged dark sky Take in all the colours, walk back to your mum On the edge of the lawn, the edge of your love Then the dog starts barking, you quieten him down It's all right it's just me, it's all right let's go home It's all right it's just me, it's all right it's just me In this last refuge, this last refuge, this last refuge of sanity