Holdin' On

You ever been in like a situation you wanna vent You wanna vent but you don't even know where to start at like My mind so clouded but I won't let it rain though I'll just grind until I see the rainbow You just gotta thug it out fuck whoever ain't with you I live for the dead it ain't even about me no more I wanna vent don't know where to start at I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it Someone tell me where my heart at Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy Don't know how I'm holding on Just wanna be left alone Tell them detectives stop calling my phone All of that staying down that I did with you And you got the nerve to change on me I was right there with him when my dad died And my auntie put the blame on me Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing Trying my best for to hold back this crying I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish Looking back at my past it's safe for to say That I'm proud of myself Breaking the law I had to take a chance My mama was pimping and nobody helped Nobody cared to tell you the truth Was broke as a bitch I hated the truth They loving my story and now I influence They ask how I did it I tell them just do it Faced all my nightmares I went for my dreams The tears that I hold back could fill up a sea My daddy he dead he can't see that I'm shining I'll make sure these songs up to heaven I reach I know that he proud of the shit I achieved I know that he proud to say Harry his son I caught me a case and I hope he ain't seen it It's killing me I feel like I let him down tell him I'm sorry I wanna vent don't know where to start at I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it Someone tell me where my heart at Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy Don't know how I'm holding on Just wanna be left alone Tell them detectives stop calling my phone All of that staying down that I did with you And you got the nerve to change on me I was right there with him when my dad died And my auntie put the blame on me Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing Trying my best for to hold back this crying I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish I'm good you don't even gotta ask how I'm doing Turned to a fiend I was just going through it I'm telling the truth what they hear is excuses It's driving me crazy they sleep on my music Like do I gotta die for to blow up Can't even count the times they ain't show up Gave em my loyalty and they all fold up Mama I'll go and get it what I told her She looking for love I got no love They saying they trapping ain't sold nun How you tryna come back when you told sum You a rat it ain't no more to talk about Know you wrong so you come and apologize All them times that I wanted to kill myself The coupe that I'm riding is suicide doors Harry was chosen and who would've known I wanna vent don't know where to start at I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it Someone tell me where my heart at Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy Don't know how I'm holding on Just wanna be left alone Tell them detectives stop calling my phone All of that staying down that I did with you And you got the nerve to change on me I was right there with him when my dad died And my auntie put the blame on me Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing Trying my best for to hold back this crying I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish