I'm Not Krazy

I'm not krazy Killa I'm Under Shellz Spellz Think it's time I put it all out on the line Before I lose my mind Shit ain't right, I'm left with feeling like I lost my freedom Pain and sadness strikes Another day to fight Long as I'm alive nothing's Going to kill my reason Praying for my sins Satan's trying to win He loses every time he sees me Hanging with my demons So many setbacks I never let that Come between the music and me Nothing's intervening So, where's my head? Can't connect Blew my brains and made a mess Take a guess Ain't correct Walking backwards, taking steps Moving forward, pushed aside Give my all, I gave my best Try converting, no one heard me Say my peace or save my breath I don't dwell when I fight myself But it don't quite help When it's everybody else Time won't tell because I've tried that still They make my life feel like a living hell My whole family hates me They don't give a shit about my health And any love they might have once had Been detached from them as well Yeah Only Shellz Just my Mom Nobody else can get along And I'm tired of trying to make things right With those who think I'm always wrong Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm aintsy I mean antsy, fuck I'm hasty I'm not krazy I'm not krazy Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm angry I'm so pissed off, shit is daily I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm just mother fucking angry I'm not krazy I'm not krazy Think it's time I bring the Darkness to the light Everything I hide Why should I protect the ones Who jeopardize my safety Don't care if I cry Broken down inside They just hope I die and there's No one there to save me Questioning again My significance They don't get the kid Naw they don't understand me Don't comprehend me I feel so empty Why I got to be the fucking Outcast of the family? They going to reject, I'm over it Mind under stress, my loaded clip Try suicide, like no attempt Please don't say hi I'm low as shit But I'm so content Nope, not legit I've passed even my own extent My whole intent is don't get close In hopes that no one notices I just want to spread love Smile through the brokenness Trying to keep my head up Swerving down this road again Climbing out the hole I'm in But I keep on slipping deeper The pain is real I'm trying to heal It seems it getting steeper To all the rest better off I'm dead No line to hit the Reaper Say it's fine Change is mine I pay no mind Shit it's cheaper Ah, ah Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm aintsy I mean antsy, fuck I'm hasty I'm not krazy I'm not krazy Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm angry I'm so pissed off, shit is daily I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm just mother fucking angry I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I been running too long Krazy And I've stood alone Krazy, krazy Never know who's wrong Krazy, krazy This house is not a home I'm not krazy Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm aintsy I mean antsy, fuck I'm hasty I'm not krazy I'm not krazy Everybody fucking hates me Pray to God that He can save me Turn to music when I'm angry I'm so pissed off, shit is daily I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm just mother fucking angry I'm not krazy I'm not krazy I'm not krazy, I'm not krazy I'm not krazy, I'm not krazy I'm not krazy, I'm not krazy I'm Under Shellz Spellz I'm not krazy Killa