Searching

I'm trapped in this box With myself and this song I sing all the words Tryna find where it hurts I keep searchin' I keep searchin' I'm tryna find where it hurts I told myself I wouldn't Come here again But I almost never listen to Myself in my head Because what do I know Nothin I'm just a fuck up I know it's dark but its true I had a few thoughts about death and it's stupid But I wrote it all down what the fuck do I do I read it all back and thought god i am losing it If mama really knew where her baby gone She wouldn't waste a second at all She be here in a minute and I'd cry it all out But I don't have the strength to pick up the phone And make that call cuz I know She would tear me a part and dissect my soul And then put it together so that I'm good to go But I can't take that pain so I crawl in a hole and I'm trapped in this box With myself and this song I sing all the words Tryna find where it hurts I keep searchin' I keep searchin' Tryna find where it hurts It feels like so much when you deal with depression And it makes you feel like nothing at all I'm up late at night because it's got me stressin' I'm wishin' that I had someone to call My breathing is fast and my heart has got tension I can not stop looking around at the walls I'm losing myself I don't know my reflection Already on edge and I'm scared I might fall I know how it feels like your minds in detention And all that you want is for it to come home You needing the answers but don't know the questions And don't have directions on where you should go But when I do say this it's not for the mentions I do it so you know that you're not alone Keep your head up homie you can get through this I know you can do this no you're not alone I'm trapped in this box With myself and this song I sing all the words Tryna find where it hurts I keep searchin' I keep searchin' Tryna find where it hurts I keep my head up theres hope in the sky *I've been through so much but I'm still shining bright I spread my wings I believe I can fly *Through all the dar days and all the long nights I won't give up when there's flickering lights *To see the best views you must climb to new heights I'll break out of the darkness inside *I wanna fly free like a stringless kite I'm trapped in this box With myself and this song I sing all the words Tryna find where it hurts I keep searchin' I keep searchin' Tryna find where it hurts