Doing Dreams

They say doing dreams is a true-life conquest Worth every wrong decision just to see once the summit Winter winds wrapping winners with a shell that won’t break Entrances are lessened by lessons we learn with mistakes I’m feeling more inspired with every day that I breathe Seeing bad escape routes that cost me more than I think I’m dreaming of a day when every decision is made well Resting in armor, I When I was only 19 I know my mind was no older Chasing after pussy with friends naïve I quit music after high school but to my surprise My friend revived a dream I didn’t know I had inside I’ll never forget being 21, stressed and awake Late at night when I was on my bed with birds in my head Staring at the ceiling, smoking, so stressed and crying ‘Cause I saw Chance The Rapper was the same age as me I swore if I were 17 that I would go for it harder Surely the teens were a better time for me to get started with rap Than being a unemployed college grad Headed out to New York for dreams that gave me a chance And so I grabbed my black fedora and I jumped on a flight With a little less than two suitcases that night My friend gave me a dream again He showed me to a room and even offered To pay the rent for a month or two When I turned 23 man I made a decision To get clean from the things that were holding me ridden To seek a treasured life not buried in image But my fun became work when this honeymoon ended I’ll never forgot the day I got fired from work And I smiled and I laughed ‘cause my face kind of hurt I felt free, finally, from this choice I couldn’t make So I thanked my boss in a future note for guiding me this way And even though I drifted and I drifted stuck alone unwritten Even though three years passed - I still hadn’t hit big Even though I never released a song or faced my fears I still had today to fight for my dreams I moved from place to place like a box was my friend Until I was 26 I never found myself settled in I’m still looking late at night to the stars through the ceiling Never learned to manage money so the money managed me And still today I’ll sit and write ‘cause it’s after midnight And I can’t let today pass without putting up a fight I quit my job, this time I did, to finally chase down my dream See myself, the Avatar, on the Amway screen ‘Cause if doing dreams is a true life conquest I feel like I’m own my way to living life accomplished And for every stress I feel that pulls me from this time I realize it’s another chance for me to sit and write You see I have this dream to be rich and famous But really I just wanted to say that I made it Even if the touring gets old boring and crazy I’d rather see the ending stale with my own eyes Burnt, still I’d lie And more than a dream I have this plan to be The first documented Avatar on TV Hip-Hop in the form with no stranger to arts Adding from every sensei Learning to every part Painting this neon path in this overshadowed city For the kids who are sitting up late night with me and wishing Stressed and swarmed by hyper comparisons to other lives Where they are, and where they could be Like thieves in the night I want the person who is sitting up staring at ceilings To hear me when I’m speaking ‘cause both of us are thinking You and I and me and you Maybe confused, but still dreaming I utilize my stress as an action instead I’ve put too much thought into music there’s no other choice So I feel bound to this destiny that’s giving me a voice And it helps me to walk these dreams one step at a time When I feel stressed I use that energy to write And it helps me to walk one these dreams step at a time When I feel stressed I use that energy to write