ascent into madness .

Issues with my esteem since I was a little dude Elementary I hated my life, I felt like I was ridiculed Popular for all the wrong reasons back in middle school Only black kid they treated my hair like a petting zoo Felt like the only kid there that the girls didn't choose High school got the confidence to do things I didn't do Had some setbacks here and there but thank God that I didn't lose Grandad was a star in his country, now I'm the guy he's living through I'ma die or I'll win and God told me I'll be living proof Only time I feel like I'm complete is when I'm in the booth You couldn't even walk a mile Or a step in my shoes Ahhh, what you trying get into What you trying get into Growing pains since a jit, mama I ain't been cool Out with the old, lil bro, yeah I been knew Ascending into madness, yeah Beezy who goin fix you Who goin fix you, Beezy who goin fix you All those issues, Beezy who can fix you All those issues, God can He fix you All those issues, Beezy who goin fix you *cough, cough* okay I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care) Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin That's my uuhhh That's my prideful self I've been (Zay don't hang up on me please) all by myself God how you goin give me life inside this hell God how you goin let my grandad die and not revive his health How you goin leave my brother on the streets when he prays for help (help) That's why I needuh get rich to get my people well We all goin be okay goin get it under my belt Final lvl when I get LV on the belt And to my grandma, to my momma, to my father, to my brother I've had self-hatred and thoughts of dying ever since I was younger And that's the reason I have this infatuation with finding a woman I need someone else other than myself for me to feel some I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness I've been ascending into madness (I hate you so much) I cannot even mask it, all the cameras flashing (haha, they don't care) Head hurting, sirens passing I might need an aspirin (I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much I hate you so much) (Madness... the state of being mentally ill, especially severely Ascent. Into. Madness) I got voices in my head I think they just want me dead I got voices in my head I think they just want me dead I got voices in my head Why am I still seeing red I got voices in my head But they not going get me dead My madness makes me, me I ain't mad at it My brother tripped out on me but I can't be mad at him Told pops I'm a street scholar I'm not a college kid I stay one hundred degrees don't need a degree to accomplish this Can't accommodate for no lames, I don't need no awkward fits You going say a eulogy at my funeral before I call it quits Before I call it quits Hold on but don't stop the clock, I'ma ball real quick Lehgetit Ascent into madness