The Beginning

Writing this letter to myself Yea the old me wouldn't listen I try so hard to hold my breath But that don't protect my vision Steady thinking bout what I left Did I make the right decision Gone get cramped if I go stretch I know that's gone cause division I been preaching to my brother I ain't been livin perfect neither I been so happy my daddy that luh bitch the broke the needle Granny happy that he home but he get wrong then she gone beat Member waking up to fights at night at night like fly me back to Meka Feel like I worked a 9 to 5 since 99 been working fa my people From the ages 5 to 9 I faced the judge he told me what I needed Better yet he asked me what I want then turn his back nd said no you don't Really ain't yo choice till you get grown they flood my house destroy my home My mom into it wit my grandma while my pops locked up in prison I ain't seen him in bout 6 years he done canceled all our visits Like chill nd let me do my sentence Everytime y'all come up here I wanna leave out this bitch witch'a make me a killer Have you really ever had to choose from yo parents When that love shit out the window gotta measure they standards When your daddy broke as fuck can't even afford you no sandals But yo moma getting by just got a house right by candler? Aint know discussion they gone tell you the answer You gotta move Dont give no fucks if you in love with the teacher you changing schools Don't give no damn they scream your name in the bleachers they finna boo Yea they gone buck is you gone walk out or beat 'em what you gone do Ahh nahhh nah I had a hard time grew up wit love the man a above my feelings all tied He think he tuff when it's enough I cross the jaw line We call his bluff and ruffed him up now he a sad guy Ma say I swing just like my pops now I'm the bad guy I cried enough in my last cry Thought you slid enough on yo last slide Get hit wit some shit my papa shot from a past life Yea I know thats right Writing this letter to myself Yea the old me wouldn't listen I try so hard to hold my breath But that wont protect my vision Steady thinking about what I left Did I make the right decision Gone get cramped if I don't stretch I know that's gone cause division I been preaching to my brother I ain't been living perfect neither I been so happy for my daddy that lil bitch done broke the needle Granny happy that he home but he get wrong then she gone beat him Remember waking up to fights at night like fly me back to Meka He damn near caught 3 more bodies locked in that cage thinking bout us I'm on the outside with no father you could say we both was ruff He done caught so many charges they done damn near pulled they plug If my grandma wasn't a high chief pigs would have left him in the mud When he touched down I showed him love We both broke down let's reconstruct Been gone too long I need a hug Even though I'm grown ion Give no fucks Your youngins need you in they life Can't dodge the mirrors just hit the light Go face the beast but they gone fight Before everything get dark tonight