i fought the wall and the wall won

Oops looks like I'm alone again I've been spending too much time on my phone again Maybe Regis had it right and I should phone a friend Instead of opening the Hub and watching porn again I ain't feeling myself I'm only an imitation Anxiety, depression with some self mutilation Fix my brain waves bruh, change the station But technical problems we having complications So I chew my cheek til it bleeds and With the taste of iron between my teeth man I can feel the anger start to creep in I just wanna make it to the God damn weekend Take a deep breath and swallow the blood Cause the fist fight with the dry wall didn't feel so good I'm not saying how I feel though I know I really should And I can feel my heart going thud thud thud I could cry But I won't No I won't I could cry But I won't No I won't Well I got Friendly neighborhood depression but I'll give it a twist I'm scared to be real on the record you might listen to this And find out who I really am and say that you miss The man that I was but he don't even really exist I write it down for my mental health I put pen to paper to express myself I make beats when I've lost all sense of self Cause each rhyme is design to test myself So I Take a deep breath and swallow the blood Cause the fist fight with the dry wall didn't feel so good I'm not saying how I feel though I know I really should And I can feel my heart going thud thud thud I could cry But I won't No I won't I could cry But I won't No I won't They say son there'll be much more to shoulder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son the world can get much colder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son there'll be much more to shoulder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son the world can get much colder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son there'll be much more to shoulder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son the world can get much colder I don't know if I wanna get older then They say son there'll be much more to shoulder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (But I won't, No I won't) They say son the world can get much colder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (But I won't, No I won't) They say son there'll be much more to shoulder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (But I won't, No I won't) They say son the world can get much colder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (But I won't, No I won't) They say son there'll be much more to shoulder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (But I won't, No I won't) They say son the world can get much colder (I could cry) I don't know if I wanna get older then (Radio fades out in the back)