My Heart Dark

When I pray I don't pray for myself Tell the truth I just pray for my family Because god know I really been active And sometimes I still feel like he mad at me I had guns to my head At a young age Tell da truth I still feel like it damaged me Swear to god That these streets made a man of me I don't care why nobody be mad at me When I was 15 and was telling em I feel alone nobody was there for me When I was 16 I was kicked out on my own You stopped being here for me When I was 17 I beefed wit the opps on my own Nobody would care to me When I was 18 They heard im upping my chrome Them niggas got scared of me When I was 19 It was just me n mama The vision got clear to me But By time I was 20 I was back hot in the booth Then some bitches got weird on me By 21 I was back w my cousin Everything that he had he would share w me So the day that he died Changed me forever I miss how my nigga was here for me I don't care what you do You thugging that's cool But just know I'm different than you I had to go on some missions alone To go do the shit That you pretending to do Lil Brax drive a Q5 If you big dawg Then you leading the youth My dawg called me Just to show some money But I'm like why u show it If I ain't eating w you? I hadda revisit my past To givem my pain But I still needed it to Walking in public Sometimes I feel like im yak Because they want a picture or two I had told lil Shawdy She can't come again Unless your friend Say she coming w you If ain't bout no money I'm not in my feelings Dont be saying I got problem with you Everytime I listen to niggas They be always talking What they probably a do If Im riding w you I need to know you hit I can't be worried bout If you probably it'll shoot I had day ones turn pussy on me Niggas wouldn't em hit a party w you And keep ya back door closed Because you a opp now Nigga you ain't part of the crew Everybody shooting Nigga what's 100 Something in my way Den something getting punished I been touching Ps I heard you getting fronted Nigga shop w me He getting what he wanted I been really pumping All I know is hustling I know why they hating They not doing nothing All I flex is muscle Moving by lonely Bet I got it on me You not taking nothing You can see it in my eyes I can't take a joke Spin a nigga blood Like I'm banging folks Never my plug He just send the bags I dont know his name I just call em moe I dont want no fame I just want some money I'm still n the game Tryna go for broke Rip my blood Shit won't be da same We been thru some shit They will never know