Afraid Of

I got some questions Why life so messy What is there to learn from all of this stressing Man these messages be blurry Life moves in a hurry Hope I'm proud of myself when I hit 30 Got people back home hard headed like stone Out on parole wishing they back in the hole Hate the fact it makes sense Man the system so bent Just glad we right with God when we repent If you know me, you know I ain't never scared Even with death man I've never cared I got some things on here thought I'd never share But I'm still sharing, despite all my fears Despite insecurities and vulnerabilities I still open like a book for y'all to read I sow the truth so y'all can seed the reap No holding back lay it out all on the beat (What are you afraid of?) I don't know Truth be told The unknown I just want answers Uncle got cancer Says God always been blessing him and he not a pastor Life is getting much faster Hope Heaven's right after World is ending hope I'm gone with the rapture Man why I keep rapping Man I don't hear no clapping I want a real reaction Why they keep laughing Friends saying they there for me I feel like they capping Never felt so insecure so how did this happen I'm not just speaking my mind, I'm just pouring my heart Realized who in my life can't play that part So started writing myself and that was a good start Just sucks when the people that you love don't support your heart I think this is anxiety at an all-time high Never got it checked out but I'm tense all the time Everything I do I feel like I'm wasting my time I be wanting to talk but nobody hits my line (What are you afraid of?) I don't know Truth be told That I fold I'm not afraid to die I'm afraid to live for no reason Never change things like the seasons You can't say I don't have a purpose cause when I was a baby you know I was seizing Doctors didn't even know the reasons High School my heart stopped I shouldn't be breathing Doctors still didn't even know the reason That's God see Man I'm so thankful Woke up another day some people don't wake though Going in my sleep seems like the nicest way to go I'm 22, black and still alive in this world I'm not a statistic I hope my folks proud yo But what if they not though? Say I do this for the fam but the fam not a fan tho Want to light this dark world but feel like a candle Can't let my fears stop me from reaching my potential and that's real tho (What are you afraid of?) I do know Truth be told I stay low