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Another trip around the sun Forty yrs down, mean I'm forty yrs done Age is just a number but my forty mean sumn Retrospective reflection on all that I've overcome Trauma I'm over some, I'm workin ain't nothin Perfect Conscious of the time that I've wasted avoiding purpose Peeling back the layers of armor from trying to make it No over compensation, no toxic conversation No tolerance for gossip, don't care bout nobody else wrong I write what's in my life, don't care bout nobody else song My pursuit of peace keeping sand beneath my feet Won't water down my wave I bring my sand to the beach Thin line between devotion and delusion Differentiate the difference between learning and losin I ain't gotta be right, but winnin gotta be nice Coming up and staying down is a tough dichotomy right Finding balance that's a mans challenge The struggle is demanding trying to multiply your talents Thats the plight of the gifted go thru with your chin lifted I love the place I'm in with the hieroglyphics decrypted See it for what it is but if I can change it I'm with it Walkin over serpents I pray when I hear them hissin I hear em in the distance and pretend that I ain't listenin Tryna stay consistent when my confidence is missing Tuning out restistance I can feel my spine stiffen Tryna stay persistent on this GOD given mission As the tide wax and wane, sit back relax the brain, see how to attack the game For art to resonate you can never detach the pain Gratitude and grief go together that fact remains Growing in wisdom is no longer hiding scars They guide us thru this life by reminding us who we are And everywhere we've been and how we can make amends With any we offend no energy to pretend Intend to Spend it all becoming the me I could be And sifting thru the ashes of who they told me I should be They never understood me, but giving in was my choice My bondage was by choice, cause I was scared of my voice It's all clearer when you let go of that anger And stare into the mirror and you get to know that stranger Stranger Oooh, you never knew you So you walk in the shoes of what others told you was true Wasn't safe to explore the subtle nuance of youth Grow up and all that's left is the monster that it produced It's easy to project and deflect, then disconnect Unwilling to accept that we lacking in self respect Learning to self reflect, it hurts but I can attest It's better letting go of the hatred that we collect On this journey of life the purpose and path I'm paving Embracing divine placement, GOD this feels amazing 40