Cry

Listen, everyone faces hardships So, understand I'm not seeking pity I just want you to stop comparing Don't belittle yourself, thinking your problems are too small to complain or hurt Or even cry about It's okay not to be okay Don't ever let anyone tell you to bottle it up Cry if you wanna cry Yeah 14, in high school, I didn't get it Lived with my dad, I was sad, I can't forget it My brother was abusing me, but how could I prevent it? Inside is where I kept it, I just had to accept it You heard me, yeah I said it Stepmom beat me till I bled, I didn't sweat it Daddy witnessed it but to my Mom, he didn't express it She saw the bruises, wanted to press charges, I was skeptic I told her to forget it, right there is where we left it You hear my story, you gon' think you finally got the answers Why I love who I love, the reason y'all can't stand her Worried 'bout the wrong things, fight me like they fight cancer But never say the good like "damn she got really good grammar" Hm Think I need sympathy? No, I do this to inspire, so you'll remember me All that trauma hitting home, but I'll remain a G I'm my only competition, me vs. me Yeah If I needa cry, imma cry I'm the only one wiping these tears from my eyes It's okay not to be okay, we normalize the lies Throw away the fake smile And cry if you wanna cry Emotions keep us alive I thought suppression was the right way through it as a child You gotta really heal, forget ya pride Mental health is as important as your life Throw away the fake smile And cry if you wanna cry Yeah 22, early 2020, I lost my dawg Shit hurt me to my heart, I felt way sicker than a cough You don't ever move on, you just learn to cope with a loss My nigga Lam was talented, rapping his ass off Late nights up in the stu with Cory, I never thought It would be this hard, I'd lose him to asphalt Speeding when the road's dark, I know it ain't your fault But we're still broken, can't take the cast off At 14, my grandparents got murdered, nothing's in shipshape Shit I went through ain't for the weak, I'm like six days Suck it up like a runny nose, ball like the Knicks game Cause even when I'm hurt I give bars like I'm an inmate They tell you there's a reason for everything, ain't no mistakes But you think is a big waste, pain doesn't let you think straight Stop tellin' people how to feel, stop tryna dictate Too much is on the table and some of us got a thin plate Yeah If I needa cry, imma cry I'm the only one wiping these tears from my eyes It's okay not to be okay, we normalize the lies Throw away the fake smile And cry if you wanna cry Emotions keep us alive I thought suppression was the right way through it as a child You gotta really heal, forget ya pride Mental health is as important as your life Throw away the fake smile And cry if you wanna cry Yeah