Father Figure (Bonus Track)

When I was young Always told myself Do better Do better than that nigga ever did This cold weather I don't freeze up Never get beat up I taught myself and only me Stick these up Don't need no guns Don't need the heat up Thats for pussies I ain't pussy He dove in pussy And then pussied out Raising a kids clearly less important Than his pussy count I ain't dogging But dogs do be making pussies run And search for a hiding spot I get judged for me riding thoughts What's in my head You ain't been there You get no say in what I do Or what I spit You just sit there Listen up Pay attention I'll at and mention And send this directly To your personal email So comprehend this You brought me into this world But going out I got myself And only me I learned the hard way From a pond to a shark tank Seeing the light Came from a dark place And a dark state *Smack lips* I thought me saying that'd leave a bad taste Finished that plate But now that I know What it really feel like To not feel like I was worthy enough Don't get it twisted And this time that I'm speaking on Ain't the time discuss You had 28 years While I was making a fuss Defending you What the fuck was I doing Thinking you change You out of date Old and expired You let that shit go to waste I can't reclaim it The years that I've lost Can't get em back Like I told you before Calling you daddy was outta habit But you ain't ever learned It's ok cause I'm an optimist Seeing all the things you do or did I'll do the opposite Keep watching this I know when to hold em and when to fold em So I'm calling it I know I could lose it all in seconds This seem immoderate It's how I feel Not completely But it's a lot of it Didn't wanna hurt you So kept it in But in process I was killing myself Well that old me is dead and gone Cremated Put that bitch on a shelf