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Oxys and the codeine I might OD Pour my life in this cup til this shit is empty Nosebleeds, higher on the rafter than Ginobli Proteins, hair follicles full of promethazine But the white girls love it My liver gon handle what my heart can't While I'm coughing both my lungs out in public I'm runnin I'm lovin All the wrong things Addicted to a substance Missin all my guidance My vision is subsided By all the laughter and all the riots That my psyche used to cope from the trust that I advised in A mental that was lying A central path to dyin Directional violence Intentional silence Intentional silence It all began when I went and bent my halo Dracos, chops, and sticks Shit hit different angles Fate though gave me the grace of an angel to save me She wasn't meant to break me My pull began to tear her til she screamin out in agony Hear the lord and I think that he mad at me I repent and I repent, make the same mistakes, blasphemy My sins disastrous My lip immaculate My wrist I slash again Self harm Cus of the guilt that I feel and I needa feel more Fuck a pill, fuck the hills, and I mean it for real I get the chills when you're spoken of, I poured me a 4 But the lines never helped when I disguised all my lies on a knee And I knelt wit a ring and I'd sing that I'm gon give you more That I'm gon That I'm gon give you more Holy matrimony Holy matrimony Holy matrimony Holy matrimony That I'm gon give you more I hate the molly Spittin all the nonsense Hot wirin my mind with the lies of assumed sex You're the ecstasy I need but I was foolish Stubborn Unable to give you what you needed Unable to be the man that you needed me to be And I hate myself for it I don't wanna forgive myself But This is a love letter Not for you but for me Reassuring my values Trying not to lose myself once more In the cold labyrinth that my feelins reside in But at what point do I have to shed what I onced believed in To trust in myself to not make the same decisions To not make the same decisions anymore I just can't do it again