A Letter From Your Son

Another year has passed I aint hearing you I hope you hearing us I hope you're feeling proud, I hope you feel the love I hope its you who picked me up when I was nearly done I swear I think about you every day, sometimes I wanna scream Or wake up from this mess but sadly this is not a dream And it seems like its only getting worse now Its hard for me to not talk about you in every verse now Sitting at your funerals wishing we could reverse I was meant to show you the world this isn't what you deserved I was meant to buy you a house I just wanted to see you stress free You made sure we were good then you struggled until the next week Its hard to be happy when I reflect cause every time I do I get reminded of all the pain that you were fighting through They say it gets easier and I think that's lie as you Get older you just have more distractions to help you hide the truth All these questions I don't know how to answer Life is hard but its harder learning without a father Felt myself gong down a path till I found my karma I was out of hope while the other kids were out of data When we lost dad its like half of me wasn't there I started to understand and you started losing your hair They said you didn't have long its so hard for me to prepare Holding your cold hands like why can't it be me in there You weren't here to see me starting and then finishing high school You weren't here when I was ready just to give up on life You weren't here when I dropped the ball and I picked up a mic You wont be there for the time when i have some kids and a wife I guess thats why I'm hesitant to love I was young but I can't help but think I never did enough Just for you, I'm standing tall and I aint ever gonna run I hope you hear me, this is just another letter from your son