IS AN ANGEL ALLOWED TO HAVE DARK THOUGHTS?

I believe life's like a dream Life is like a movie Believe in yourself Believe in yourself Believe in Believe in yourself Fuck it lets just kick it angels Madness taking over it I got a bunch of weed and i don't Mind smoking it I don't mind sharing it i don't mind rolling it Please do me a favor name a Rapper that im rolling next I don't fake my confidence, when i Fail i can admit I got a face tat on the side to Represent the kids How im one of them and how you Cant begin Without the first one And i'm that one have you heard of this How crazy and absurd but lovely it is To fall as an angel into the darkest Pit Of lonelinesses Constant failing confidence You know familiar shit It's probably ending all of it That is if we're not loosing our Heads Over the dollar bills Looking for the greener hill Even tho we're children and we Can't Admit that we're failing here The focus ain't clear for some of y'all Hoping that a prayer is gone save Ya From tremendous falls But no matter what the Lord will Always be standing tall And i'm the queen In my dream realm I wanna show you higher walls Than Palmdale I remember myself From a tiny place Remember my face Even my embrace When you're running away From your comfort place Make the little biddy wanna say Her grace Make the little biddy wanna say Okay To all of my plays Let her hold a small one in her Purse on Wednesday Make her give it back when i'm off On Sunday Told me that she all about the Gunplay She say Then on my say Go ahead and play And if you get hurt No mames wey Every time i'm passing blunts she Say thank you Every time i wanna hit, she say Puff two Every time i wanna come through She trynna come through with a Tasty plate of food Just know babies i appreciate you Just know i understand what You've been through Through the pain, through the Struggle yeah that makes 2 2 millions people probably feel the Same too Im just saying This shits amazing When you going this hard You stop complaining Remember that there's dreamers With the anchor Your mind is stronger than any power That you came for Let it fly Baby dream high Remember that these hating People always ask why Why you doing this And why you doing that Why you moving silly letting People pass you by Couldn't be i And it's no surprise I promise ima carry you all when i rise I promise you momma ima fly real high I promise there's no limit baby you can touch the sky I mean look at i No i ain't perfect But give me the camera lens i can work it I know sometimes i make you Work it Baby can you tell me am i really Worth it? And be honest Don't break me no promise I break myself real constant Going through these chapters yeah I'll feel nauseous Going through these lessons father Im sorry I know that i'm strong but i hope I'm not falling If i am i hope you're catching Even tho i know that i gotta use Caution Is an angel allowed to have dark thoughts Know that i'm floating in the river Non stop With dark memories But they make me top notch And no i'm not interested in Taking your spot If you really love me, watch me go I can't stop Make a change make a change Yeah i want to I wanna better myself, do you Want it too? Wanna level with me? hop in my Coup Just know that i'ma do For you What the others won't ever do For you Just know that ima do For you What these others won't ever do For you Im sorry i'm rolling I can't stop flowing Throw me in the river but I'm still rowing I'm still going To my destination Know you cannot stop it Tell me i'm the one that you Hating Tell me i'm the one I was destined for greatness Yes i saw the word of the Lord, Read the message Read the message Darling read the message Know it's not hard to finish one Sentence If they catch you praying Will you be saying that he's Present Or will you try to hide it Cause it's me who represents it Life's like a movie It's better to have a short life doing What you love Than a long life, doing what you Hate