winter semester

Since I met you I've been tripping over thoughts in my head Replaying memories in my bed Aggressive or pacifist, I'm getting the hang of it Trading an arm for a leg You're my angel heaven sent Dressed in robes of violet Wait, I got the wrong message Guess I misinterpreted Still, I need your helping hand To navigate the foreign land And the cognitive dissonance At least I'll die here with my friends 'Cause, winter semester Has got me hopin' for better 'Cause I say shit without thinkin' It's got me stayin' up drinkin' If I could undo bad timing Then maybe you'd still be trying We'd never say hello again Because I'd never leave your side Since I met you I've been seeing green in crimson places I've been waxing poetic in silence You don't listen to my songs, just dial tones Leave my efforts on read 'Cause every part of me believes if I keep the feats For attention, then you'll mention adoration Maybe in a future conversation And maybe I'll see you on vacation But not in real life, on your story I was about to reach out But I'm fucking boring Never made it out of this stupid city Never took a chance 'cause it seemed too risky And I don't give a fuck if you think I'm clingy If you never want to tell me when you're feeling shitty I accidentally strike a nerve You assume the worst, you ignore my words I say sorry first You know I ain't tryna be irritating It's just I haven't seen you since graduation Our summer in the blink of an eye An ebb in the tide, and we're back living our separate lives And only for a moment will we ever see A glimpse of each other's eternity You gave me a story to keep in my pocket Tucked under your sleeve, my heart in a locket And two in the morning it aches to be free Of the best and the worst of our memories Sublimate the pain in a melody And I sincerely hope you're happy 'Cause you were lonely, a lost soul too relatable By now, I keep you safe unconditional But would it kill you to call? Not even once in the fall I guess that's what I get for wanting anything at all I know you're busy with all your shit in college New friends, no time for old connections And all the dozen other reasons that you tell yourself Catch you never I guess, I'll see you in hell Winter semester Has got me hopin' for better 'Cause I say shit without thinkin' It's got me stayin' up drinkin' If I could undo bad timing Then maybe you'd still be trying We'd never say hello again Because I'd never leave your side Romantic rejection Just gives me visceral reactions Whenever I see it happen To too many of my friends 'Cause it reminds me of us and Everything that we weren't We'll never say hello again 'Cause you're no longer by my side, yeah I had a dream Forgot who you were Couldn't pick out your face In a sea of strangers And when I woke up I wish it was true But I still know your name Even if I don't know you Oh, just look at this mess If it's not your fault then why am I in pieces Oh, your voice overhead Don't even got courtesy, you leave me for dead Winter semester Has got me hopin' for better 'Cause I say shit without thinkin' It's got me stayin' up drinkin' If I could undo bad timing Then maybe you'd still be trying We'd never say hello again Because we'd never say goodbye Romantic rejection Just gives me visceral reactions Whenever I see it happen You catch me cryin' like a bitch 'Cause it reminds me of us and Of the fact that we couldn't Put aside our differences Now you're no longer by my side, no Take me far away from the sovereignty of your throne I'm better off when I don't put your love on a pedestal And though it never feels like I'll get it right I don't need your voice to tell the stories I'll write