These Days

Look This is my depression album Feeling like valiums Days are back and forth Cause some are sweet and some are sour Spending many hours In a dreamscape See a meadow full of flowers Wake up longer hours Searching for that power Dodging all that powder Cause that dust will throw you into your life final hour Is this that euphoria i've been searching for Utopia i've been searching for Eden in my rear view Never had a clear view Near moves Focus and you'll hear clues Walking through the mildew Cause the downpour overhead is constanly adhered to My person Although know one thing is certain I can see the brighter days Up ahead so open curtains Let the light rays through Let them shine right through Time to break the damn loop Like Rika or Subaru And fuck what they say to do I'm writing this on 2-22-2022 So many things i'm getting to And that I have to prove But this the day I step foward and do what I gotta do Change my whole damn life And hopefully make it right And hopefully see the sights And the visions Clairvoyance quick decisions Make that shit your damn mission And finally change positions Take your time to listen Lesson learned Passion burns Live your life to fullest until you end up in the urn It's your time to play Don't ever be skipping turns Uh And that's just how it feels these days And that's just how it feels these days Caught up in your fears these days So don't run away I Don't want to see these feels today Don't want to see what kills today Don't want to see my legacy fade It will be okay I I Back to back nights Back to back fights Back to back lights Back to back ice Cold shoulder Never took a chance in life cause fears what held me tight But I always visualized what i'd be like To finally be recognized And praised once in my life For things that I would grind A sign from the heavens that we would be alright Cause honestly sometimes I feel it get colder than winter nights About to loose my fight Uh Blamed other people for my problems Instead searching solutions Was so many ways to solve em I talked shit and then got caught up in the drama And especially to my momma Wouldn't be enough time in my lifetime That I spend apologizing Before I make it right and Maybe this is retribution For all the fucking lame excuses Dropped outta college Couldn't even pay tuition So just sit and listen Take to heart this lesson Uh I wish I talked to my dad more Was grateful of what I had more And never sad more And feeling glad more Feelings I never had more How it feel to have everything you want in life and then never feel depression I get caught up in life confessions Like its miscommunications Always regretted never showing enough love to all my siblings One day i'll find the strength to say I love em' more Cause I learned that family nowadays is most important Solely focus And that's just how it feels these days And that's just how it feels these days Caught up in your fears these days So don't run away I Don't want to see these feels today Don't want to see what kills today Don't want to see my legacy fade It will be okay I I I I