Can't Get It Anyway

I-I'm getting older And feel like I'm getting colder It's not that I'm not social It's because I'm carrying this boulder Sometimes you call it the world I'm not atlas Not lost, I got a map all the way to Wonderland no Alice No Malice Didn't have a past with drugs & fame Made from the same thread but running a different lane With the reputation I had thought my rap was gonna be dope I had to come to grips with my character Is it entertainment or hope At the age of ten got into Eminem Introduced to a hip hop neverland Then heard White America mama opened a can of worms - hysteria Then 50 Cent & Tupac At home at school I was running amuck Then the bullying cannot take it thought that now I'ma try my luck Started to write diss raps V-Vented my spleen all over the paper I was overdosing on emotion, the music was my saviour Then mum saw my behaviour then hid the drugs that'll destroy me What a gangsta how can I be man so fast while I'm still a boy, see I'm an ordinary man With an extraordinary plan But feel like it'll all crumble just like castles in the sand This goes to all the ppl with skill And a lotta time to kill If you procrastinate that'll be your fate If you don't break out of that steel Cause that is me I got this vision in my brain They calling me insane No matter if I pray Lord I can't get it anyway You can doubt me all the same I got a right to say Despite the price I pay I still can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway Fast forward I'm a Christian To the word of God I'm listening Talking bout the issues in life And how God can free you from the mischief But years go past, had Glory Days now I'm feeling unnoticed Look at OPUS Picture putting your heart and your soul into one moment I know life is like a vapour that was up in smoke like a vape But I gotta remind myself, just as long as someone's been changed So I got kids and I go to church Trying to find time to put in the work Full time job, I get frustrated trying to juggle it'll only get worse I'm an ordinary man With an extraordinary plan I feel like Joshua and Caleb saying we can take the land This goes to all the ppl with skill And a lotta time to kill If you procrastinate that'll be your fate If you don't break out of that steel Cause that is me I got this vision in my brain They calling me insane No matter if I pray Lord I can't get it anyway You can doubt me all the same I got a right to say Despite the price I pay I still can't get it anyway I got this vision in my brain They calling me insane No matter if I pray Lord I can't get it anyway You can doubt me all the same I got a right to say Despite the price I pay I still can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway I can't get it anyway Lord I can't get it anyway Black Moose