Gray Clouds

Mm mmhmm ohh ohh ohh Ohh ohh ohh oh Got a lot on my mind Got a lot that I hide I'm not proud of the shit that I've done But fuck it I tried Your killing my vibe Get the fuck out my sight Anxiety sparking too high, poppin Out like the 4th Of July She hate when I get this high She swear it make her cry But it makes me feel alive She can tell I'm sleep deprived I ain't sleep in 3 nights, demons Putting up a fight (Beating my ass) Cardiac arrest, all the drug use really Should've put me to rest To my ex girlfriend, I'm sorry to Lying to you about my drug abuse I know that it hurt you too but I Promise that I never ever meant too I still wish you the best I know I'm the problem, say it with my chest I know I've been wildin, saying petty things about you on the internet About a girl that I met, then I hacked your account out of spite There's rot to many things I can say I do right Looking back I don't want to be that same guy This ain't a song to win you back I'm just tryna get over the past Need to accept my wrongs Resort to writing sad songs I know I'm the problem I confess I know god got me he gon' wash away my sins Feels like times stopping when I get in my head All the pills I was popping never took away stress Got a lot on my mind Got a lot that I hide I'm not proud of the shit that I've done But fuck it I tried Your killing my vibe Get the fuck out my sight Anxiety sparking too high, poppin out like the 4th Of July She hate when I get this high She swear it make her cry But it makes me feel alive She can tell I'm sleep deprived I ain't sleep in 3 nights, demons putting up a fight (Beating my ass) Cardiac arrest, all the drug use really should've put me to rest I was down bad on my ass had nobody left Miss being 6 playing with a tech deck (Mhm) Now I'm 19 playing with death (Mhm) Everyday I'm putting my life to the test Drowning in liquor drowning in sorrow How many pills you think I got in this bottle? (Shit) shit I don't even know All I know is that it's enough to make it through tomorrow (That's good enough) Enough to kill my sorrows Enough to stop the rain Enough to clear the gray clouds, Clouding up my sane Enough to stop the bad thoughts flowing through my brain A temporary solution to an endless pain Sometimes I wish I knew What I was putting myself through I realize no matter how hard I try I'll lose The devil set me up so I'm bound to lose Got a lot on my mind Got a lot that I hide I'm not proud of the shit that I've done But fuck it I tried Your killing my vibe Get the fuck out my sight Anxiety sparking too high, poppin out like the 4th Of July She hate when I get this high She swear it make her cry But it makes me feel alive She can tell I'm sleep deprived I ain't sleep in 3 nights, demons putting up a fight Cardiac arrest, all the drug use really should've put me to rest Me faygo, mr lay low, underground rock boy Aye I'm not done I still got more shit to say Just on a different beat