Woke Up

I have an unhealthy obsession with death, knew you would notice If you listen closely I'm painting a picture that's beautifully coated Mortality becoming more a reality as soon as you're older Wasn't till I am in a hole in the ground when they threw me my roses Calming me down has the difficulty of diffusing explosives You'll never find me getting lost in the crowd because humans have motives If you let them they'll use you till you forget who's in control A Cuban household is the reason for my refusal to do what I'm told Libertad Never losing my soul, don't think that I'll ever sleep good until I recoup what I'm owed Moving solo, down in the valley so why am I stooping so low Am I still present in a group photo if I was the person that's pressing the shutter Was on easy street as a photographer, follow my dreams and the road got rougher Smoke out the muffler instead of from hitting a bubbler Looking back it's all a blur Before it got deep as a graveyard shoveler You know what they say, love and learn My cup got fuller till it started overflowin' God is a poet and I am one too, just hollow and stoic Woke up today Woke up today At a camp site by lamp light my van's white Receipt for space of land tonight is clamped tight just how the manager likes Family guys driving buses equipped with satellites to see the Champ fight Damned if I, do damned if I, don't go try to live this rap life Only buck in my pocket is my black knife Movies I keep in a flashdrive No one to save me if I crash and die I hope I go to heaven in the after life 1 12 87 to whenever it happens but what was that dash like They told me to take a hike, am I reading this map right Wolf can be these four words We Only Look Forward, so drive straight Even though I'm roaming I'll send you a text when I arrive safe Still have the crumbs I was given from Cookies, maybe like five eighths From the last time you seen me you can tell I've aged More lines on my face The tiny little light inside of my eye fades Even though I always migrate On and off the highway, kinda feels like I'm in the way They say loneliness is a mindstate and your only friends you find by fate These are memoirs of my time away in the event that I die today Woke up today Woke up today Never seen a person die but I've seen dreams die Seen excitement turn into doubt then it's the peace sign If you're still holding on even by a string, cling tight Whatever brings you life I wish for you twice, matter fact three times Anywhere in this valley's salty turf I triple my worth Would drive my van to the top of a canyon if it don't tip over first Feels like everybody's cappin but I don't have the time to watch ships go under My four-legged companion ears flop open when I drive and the road dips low, I wonder If he thought we were airborne Thank God I was there for him Living things we care for When we sleep we share warmth When I grieve he's aware I'm sure When he leaves I'm paranoid Returns when I say come here boy My dog seen my tears of joy Woke up today Woke up today