State Of Mind

By now they already know I ain't no regular I've been grinding just to let you know Soon I won't have time so I can't say if ima fit you in my schedule Tryna put away my cellphone Good vibes in tryna get me some Get into it ,cuz I've been too mad at the world Tell me why cuz idk I've been spending my time tryna think shi thru they don't know what's on my mind So many hints you didn't have a clue ,I got flaws I been tryna hide I remind myself when I wake up u gotta fight your own battles Divine I Had to restart my life so I take things one day at a time Some days my nightmares overshadow my big dreams It ain't normal the way I see things In a fight I'm in the big ring with these thoughts but now I'm winning Ain't been the same I'm sure that anyone can tell whenever they see me I had to let go of my feelings and that's the only thing that freed me You know I won't forget my roots ye I'm proud of it I don't idolize this music but my happiness come out of it Don't just do it all for me I want my moma to to be proud of me Don't get too comfy in that spot you'll get knocked out of it I just hope u see the real me Everything I talked about ik that one day they gon feel me That unconditional love I hope they love me for who I am Ima show my pops who never really cared that I'm my own man It's like they play wit my worth rn because I'm unheard But when I start going up some finna claim they was here first So I'm at peace being alone n im done texting u first I'm really thanking God more cuz I know shi coulda been worse for me Always on something positive when I rap But they don't acknowledge it thas a fact They Said Ian goin hard enough without a strap But my life ain't really based off of cap I talk about wut I been thru so how about that ? I'm giving u the real but they can't accept the real me Only niggas that can relate gon feel me Ima still make it out no kizzy Somedays I just wanna throw my phone in a lake too many distractions in my face too many obstacles in my way, too many risks a nigga gotta take They said it takes time ,but how long is the wait? How long is the wait? They said it takes time 'fore it to be ok, how long is the wait? They said it takes time