Overdose (feat. Daniella Gutierrez)

I felt lost, had no self love I had dreams, hope one day, I won't wake up I was confused and all, what were these dreams about Why tell, if no one, would believe me She kept getting dreams that she crying in a room They thought that she was crazy, wasn't really telling the truth Aunty like, she a baby, she was probably confused But the truth was she young & she ain't know what to do Yeah I guess she young but wasn't throwing a fit Couldn't ask her mom for help cus she was always so strict Everywhere she had to turn always felt like that's it So much pain she had to hold, made her feel like she sick Now Going to school, all she ever saw was bullies How they talk about my looks but don't understand me fully nah I really wanna numb the pain Here's a razor, no you'll never feel the same Does it feel better now Yeah I think it does Wait, I think I need something more than this This ain't working no more I felt lost, had no self love I had dreams, hope one day, I won't wake up I was confused and all, what were these dreams about Why tell, if no one, would believe me At this point, she kept on holding what hurts Couldn't even try to eat, cus she was all insecure Couldn't tell her one thing cus everything will disturb All she ever tried to do is leave a scar where it hurts Now She met a therapist she'd only see Tried to see what no one else really tried to believe Now, I'm sorry to say this, make her feel accepted When she was only 3, you daughter has been molested Now She felt disgusted think it's time to take these pills End my life for good maybe this will make me feel Said i wanna die till I felt that it was real Got this feeling in my mind that kept on holding on me still Now my Body giving up Exhausted from throwing up Took so many pills, now my body numb Can't believe I didn't die, took like 21 I felt lost, had no self love I had dreams, hope one day, I won't wake up I was confused and all, what were these dreams about Why tell, if no one, would believe me I believe you, all you gotta do is speak up Can't nobody understand if you ain't speaking up for yourself Can't nobody help you if you ain't help yourself So now, I encourage anybody who need to tell they story Don't hold back, You got this, Trust yourself Yeah, Im proud of you