1,000 tears

They say thugs don't cry but I dropped 1000 tears My nigga laying in that box I ain't picture this is years I used to be afraid to die but I'm seeing real clear I can't keep running from the pain the devil watching in the rear I don't wanna question god but I got a couple questions Why you taking all the real and keep them demons living reckless I be crying in the booth be revealing my confessions My life changed in a week I'm counting days removing blessings I got pain in my body I got hurt in my soul I'm hearing voices in my head telling me keep the peace But I can't go I ain't a sucka I'm a lick then you deceased Is it a heaven for g lord knows I be sinning I can't work a 9-5 I take my chances jumping fences Drinking all my pain away I can't get high I need another way to elevate Tell me I'm living in a dream so I can awake I know I did alotta wrongs I'm gone get right today They say the good die young why I ain't dead yet I'm never trading on my mans for the bread yeah My niggas dying I'm surviving don't wanna leave here I got you tatted on my arm bra you still here I'm tired of the rip's Bra you still with me thinking bout memories