Cigarettes

I'm smoking cigarettes to paint my lungs as black as what's inside me I'm so lost. So fucking lost that government tracking couldn't find me Felt like dying today Felt like it yesterday, too I pray I don't find me a way All I see are shades of blue I need some pink I need some red I need some orange in between I need to dump what's in my mind Don't have the storage or the means I think I lost it I think I lost it Brain is broke That's my favorite joke Found my chain to smoke I lost focus, and for what? Watched the lotus turn to dust When we was something, we was something else And now I'm just a polaroid Did it to myself, I'm sorry Touched the sun to melt my body Talked to God and felt ungodly Echoes through my field at night Wonder how you feel at night I reached for space to feel the light I'm sorry Count your scales, I found my balance in an astral body Breaths from passing zombies Out of step and out of body Had dreams of flashing lights inside my lens from paparazzi Woke up to yesterday, and every day's a carbon copy I think I lost my mind, I swear I'm out my manicotti Forever damned to watch me fuck it up What, what, what, what I'm ten-toes down, standing tall til I falter I put my guard up, I let you into my Gibraltar I blew my momma up and I was crying when I called her I found my black lagoon and dropped the chlorine in the water In the water What, what In the water, water, water, water Cause, uhh I'm smoking cigarettes to paint my lungs as black as what's inside me I'm so lost. So fucking lost that government tracking couldn't find me Felt like dying today Felt like it yesterday, too I pray I don't find me a way All I see are shades of blue I need some pink I need some red I need some orange in between I need to dump what's in my mind Don't have the storage or the means I think I lost it I think I lost it