Checkin In

I'm just living check to check I'm just living checking opportunities Like hey what's next Friends hit my phone To make some moves wit me I read that text Family approves of what I choose And what I choose To be so frugally So yeah I'm blessed Ain't no room for second thoughts Ain't no time for feeling less I been clearing space up in my mind There ain't no place for stress I feel there's a glare up in my eyes I need to get lasek Damn you know I meant lasik In my bed I lay I'm sick I'm so focused on this shit I stay in my lane no drift Ones who close to me Arms length away And those opposed stay sit Man you know I mean stay put Often puttin down my foot Steady laying down the law Open heart might be my flaw Really think I care too much Wish I focused on myself Days I waste away At times I pray one day for better health Fraid the sky stay gray Never sun rays To shine through what I felt Blame I stray away from everyday I leave that on the shelf And I hope I find my place Where everyone around me Spreading love Family straight Ain't been time to come together Know my mind in cloudy weather I'm gon shine through mine however Where I'll be there ain't to tellin Dig graves for my mistakes Theres higher stakes where I be dwellin Ain't nowhere safe to settle in I really hate the state I'm in But I'll be straight just checking in This that feeling I won't regret And to my parents I'm hoping I won't upset I feel the pressure It's pushing down on my chest If i told you I wasn't worried I swear it wasn't a flex I'm just confident in my work I know the distance I've traveled I know the cost of my worth I see the people around me I know they got it way worse It's hard to even explain it Just know I'm lucky That's first This that orange slices at halftime Getting ice cream Celebrate with yo dad time Cruising wit homies Golden hour My pastime Tell me there's a wait to go I ain't waiting in that line Days Im second guessin myself How you call them your friends When you couldn't trust in yourself Dreams high on the shelf One day I'll bloom I suppose it But how you expect to grow If the seeds you planted ain't showing I'm hoping Yeah I'm hoping Yeah I'm hoping Wishing Praying good luck you know I ain't choking I go through the motions I go through the motions Ain't no second guessing it You know that I'm chosen