Hold 'Em (feat. Shoshanna)

Life So many ups and downs, smiles and frowns When the going gets tough, will you find a way to turn it around Life Uh, yeah I'm fighting battles in my head and I'm realizing it I'm talking everyday but I do a good job of hiding it And I'm still deciding if I wanna leave from inside of it It's gets dangerous in this brain with truth and lies in it I'm not talking to you, I'm talking about lying to myself That I don't have habits with zero problems and don't need help If I had to be vocal about my feelings then I'm in debt If I'm feeding my own mind with thoughts, who's the ref It gets dark in here, yeah Relax and take a breath, yeah You might not like what's in Hell's Kitchen when I'm the chef Ever wonder what death is like, when things ain't right Money's tight and insecurities take over your life Worried about what everybody might think is tight Everyone is in control except for who's on the mic Does your mind ever wander off on a bad day Relieving pain is only one balcony jump away Feel like I've had enough, I'm about to give it up They just keep trying me and I got no time for wasting Do I surrender now? Cards down and fold it Think I'll just keep the crown, sleeves up and hold it Feel like I've had enough, I'm about to give it up They just keep trying me and I got no time for wasting Do I surrender now? Cards down and fold it Think I'll just keep the crown, sleeves up and hold it How I feel right now is giving me problems, only time can solve 'em This corporate job is weighing on me, motivation dissolving With the addition of COVID-19, I can almost see the writing Spray painted clear on the wall Declining and about to fall Do you keep doing something when there's no more passion and ya heart's not in it Do enough just to get by, going through the motions till the day has ended 6 years and running, top of the world then ya hunger disappears like magic Swear this is tragic like a funeral without an open casket But then I turn around and think about the other route Changing my mindset, I'm only in a drought Came back before when I was down and out One foot out the door but never bowing out Battle back, flying down the field in the 4th like Peyton Manning in Denver running up the score Then defend the lead like the Detroit Pistons hitting the boards in 2004 Always gotta get myself back in line My thoughts drift and they don't mind Time to get back on the grind and control whatever I can and make what I want mine And grab my life by the feet, legs, sternum, throat and head Cause this ain't Texas fold 'em, they call it Texas Hold 'Em Feel like I've had enough, I'm about to give it up They just keep trying me and I got no time for wasting Do I surrender now? Cards down and fold it Think I'll just keep the crown, sleeves up and hold it Feel like I've had enough, I'm about to give it up They just keep trying me and I got no time for wasting Do I surrender now? Cards down and fold it Think I'll just keep the crown, sleeves up and hold it