Breathe Again

I used to give myself second chances when I felt like I was hurt Wondered why it always felt like I was seen but never heard Something changed when I grew up, I lost the fire in my eyes I've asked a million times "Why?" and pushed my feelings to the side Burnt out, I turn that voice around and blame it all on me When it was dark, you set a fire in me; a single match is all I need To ease my mind, to fill this void, to ease the pain But now you've got me cornered in your twisted game Cuz you're just a temporary rush A temporary fix A momentary pause on life that's got so much to give So I long for the day that I can breathe again I'll make sure I say goodbye to you so I can see that day begin Another day in my life that I refuse to give again "I can breathe again," someday I will say I've tried a hundred times, and I've cried a hundred more The air I'd kill to breathe without you knocking on my door You make me feel so safe inside; all my worries fade away You let me have a blue sky, but it soon turns back to grey Cuz you're just a temporary rush A temporary fix A momentary pause on life that's got so much to give So I long for the day that I can breathe again I'll make sure I say goodbye to you so I can see that day begin Another day in my life that I refuse to give again "I can breathe again," someday I will say How to break this bad habit, how to bid farewell? How to say goodbye to something I knew so well? The perfect girl I'm trying to be What will she achieve? How to hold her own hand and ask for what she needs Cuz now every scar from the fate of your hands reminds her where she's been So I long for the day that I can breathe again Without your illusions keeping score with every win You pull me back into your reach each time I try to leave I bandaid up the bullet holes so you can't see me bleed Another day in my life that I refuse to give away "I can breathe again," someday I will say "I can breathe again," someday I will say "I can breathe again," someday I will say