Alibis

I'm dwelling on the scars and the marks That been tearing up my heart And never seeming to heal Blood is steady dripping From stitches I can't conceal My friends are always giving me Words I can never feel But My mind in the dark That can never reach a spark And my body start realizing that it's getting real Negotiated trust, but got breached outside the deal The bittersweet lust, connections that were a thrill A love I thought I kill for, die for Steal for and lie for Anything that told me otherwise, I would despise for Thought you were the Bonnie to my Clyde But Bonnie had another she was sneaking the side that she would slide for Im hurting deeper than comprehension The feelings more intense and the density is ascending Cant go on and front, I'll be blunt with no pretending You never had a care about our love, ignored the friendship And the kindness I given you through the years Moments of doubts turned true, I foresaw my biggest fear Only told me the thing I'd love to hear I see our end is near, I can feel it giving chills and it kills now I see you going through changes And suddenly we are strangers You're busy talking to danger And loved betting on wagers We're both on different pages You chose to move on, and so will I (Cause I, cause I) I'm tired of alibis I have to speak my anger and my truth You know that you are such snake and so fake for that too How many times did it take, to go realize your mistake And then face me with the bitter news My head is flustered and overwhelmed From the blunder and hell Couldn't tell what your thoughts were Now I'm in a realm Of confusion and hate And I'm losing my patience I thought you were the one But that mindset was taken Awakened the devil from calamity And all the thoughts of someone inside you awake insanity And those lips lied too, they taint in profanity Murder on my mind with restraint god was handing me You said I was the man for you Well some man I had to be Because although I was a man Another man you had to see I bear a strong aggression in this mental session As there are many type of questions I think of every second How you practicing polygamy Then claiming your monogamous And hurting your own lover With the lack of your acknowledgment I sometimes asked about him But your status stayed anonymous Your words were always lies, just like politics And now I hate that I was with you I hate and I resent you I Hate this fate but more importantly, hate that I miss you Cause now I feel conflicted with this rage and box of tissues Thinking of ways I can seek my vengeance and finally get you But now I get that, silence the only way to get back I gotta keep it pushing and respect that I see you now shown your true colors, I held the pain and with that I'm finally moving on with no setbacks I see you going through changes And suddenly we are strangers You're busy talking to danger And loved betting on wagers We're both on different pages You chose to move on, and so will I (Cause I, cause I) I'm tired of alibis