Soft Spoken

I dont even know what i wanna say People talk and they acting like we been the same Yea Shining bright but it's a rainy day Always in my bathroom and I'm chilling with these razor blades Yea Now all i ever see is gray Never seems to change everyday's a different shade Spending all my time hanging with my magic eight Shaking in my hand asking if I'm about to die today Some days i just wanna go and fly away What would happen if I went and I just died today I mean shit I'm basically standing in my grave Living everyday the same This shits a fucking daze (Fuck) I'm about to go and set a date You know for my death i should probably get the tape No more singing from my soul so i cant escape And call me crazy but some people just cannot relate Fuck it I'm just singing for myself now Everywhere i look i aint ever helped out People meet then they end up with a frown Cause i tell them what i think then they leave with self-doubt (Ugh shit) Met my first friend in a ditch Blade up in my hand so my hand turn to a fist Parent to the kid i was feeling parentless I'm a child to the parent that's a slap up on the wrist (Shit) Every time i tell you you just go and shake it off He's just fucking joking he ain't really give it all All these bad thoughts he don't really fucking mean them Guess the only way to set an example is to achieve it Then Fuck it I guess i dont really need you then I'm just gonna go out in the morning guess I'll see you then Yea Find a way to just be me again Tryna beat the pressure but i never could've beat the pen Yea I dont take the time to take it in Writing all these thoughts from my head that I'll never see again Yea I just wanna go and see the end Being that close to death i don't wanna meet again Yea Maybe i can go and be the man Going out to the public and mother fucking take a stand I dont really know I'm kinda feeling really worried yea I'm a soft spoken guy I'm feeling kinda nervous yea