A Thousand Times

I never saw it coming I never thought of this I always tried my hardest Dealt with your stupid shit But now we're drifting further And you're okay with that That makes me so damn lonely I want my baby back For now you're just a stranger Like looking in the mirror You say it's not forever Those words don't make it clear Your actions speak much louder So, don't you say you love me I see the way you're acting I know I'm missing something I met you when I was young We made love and had some fun We had our problems I thought we solved them But I was wrong I guess the truth is harmful I broke your heart about a thousand times I guess it's your turn to break mine I'm left here deserted and I'm fucking hurting But some part of me feels like I do deserve this I don't want to give you up so easily But everything in me is saying I should leave You never looked at me the way that you do now So, I keep tryna' fix it But I don't know how I'm so god damn insecure And now I hate myself much more Sinking deeper than before But I can't let you go I met you when I was young We made love and had some fun We had our problems I thought we solved them But I was wrong I guess the lies are harmful I broke your heart about a thousand times I guess it's your turn to break mine I'm left here deserted and I'm fucking hurting But some part of me feels like I do deserve this Don't go Just stay a little longer Baby, I hope That it's all in my head And that you know You're never gonna' find another person Who will love you Like the way I fucking love you I'll go Can't stay another second Just to hold hope I might be in my head But baby, I know I don't want somebody Who will love me everyday Like the way you fucking love me I can't Just stick around to see you with a New man I might be in my head But baby, I am Falling out of love and us, and trust Every second that I don't have you When you met me I was broken You fixed me up Then you tore me open I never thought that you had felt this way Chasing life and feeling so restrained I fucked this up about a thousand times It wasn't enough to just apologize I'm left here deserted and I'm fucking hurting But some part of me knows that I don't deserve this