Awake

Uh Feel like a dead man walking The sedative in my head is defective I called it It's diabolic If I try to acknowledge it The world'll label me as an outcast And I'll get accused Beaten Bruised We can Lose It shouldn't effect the way the people see me You see me on the corner or the tv Wikipedia it devious I'm leading us A way that isn't tedious because Whatcha know about them suicidal thoughts Every time you go ta sleep Yeah I'm serious let's talk about it Obvious it hits home for me Otherwise I wouldn't get up on the mic And make a song about it What you got wrong about it Is I never rap about some shit I haven't witnessed The truth is in the sentence for ya I can find ride or dies in my bloodline So if you wanna go fine I'll be good I never fit in with the cool kids Then again I never really tried hard to I just thought that They wouldn't get me It's not like they pushed poked and kicked me But then I brought in a copy of my mixtape It got mixed hate But I got respect from it Who woulda guessed I would Have done a couple more By time I was 21 I had bout 200 songs Then my streams just dropped off My shit wasn't important And I thought that often Then everybody started hoping on this rap train Ironic enough I was trying ta hop off At the time I was pretty low But then the thought to make Day Dreamer came along I Recorded fifty something songs for that mothafucka That year I dropped three full albums Now I'm back with the sequel And I'm no longer depressed I can't see no evil I don't clamp up when I see people Extend a hand cause I seen what peace do True And as for suicidal thoughts they're gone And I owe my thanks ta god I'm still day dreaming Even on days off But that's just part of the thing dog It's phase one They don't wanna see me winning They don't They don't They don't They don't But ta hell wit em I'm on I-95 going 95 wit the windows down alright I gotta let my demons go go go go Am I awake or Still dreaming I don't but Woah Shit 911 what's your emergency