Bad Habits (Interlude)

Um so, suppose I'm just wondering If you could tell me more about how you've been feeling I mean, say this past week? I got lots of habits, and I know that I am not okay Empty souls in clubs, and all they do is party everyday Trust me I ain't judgin', cause I'm part of them in every way But let me take you back, to how we came into this fuckin place Walked into a party, all we hear is heavy 808's Bitches in the bathroom doing shit that I don't wanna say Met a couple niggas, didn't know they were some criminals Young and fuckin' reckless but were forced to grow up anyway Now we caught up in a little cycle of this pleasure pain Came into a point where we don't care cause we just numb the pain Slidin' through the back door of a strip club, keep these dancers paid I'm not talkin' throwin' cash, talkin' bout the white cocaine Heading to another party, drunk and I can't see a thing Now it's just a daily thing, and I'm not even tryna escape Maybe this was meant to be so guess I'll grab a pint of lean Then I met this friend, now her name is unidentified Met her in a room where she was takin couple Adderall's Didn't even ask but I could tell that she was feeling pain This is what she said, when I asked her why she felt this way Tears all in her eyes said, "I don't wanna live no more I don't see a reason why I still should be alive yunno? I just lost a baby and I did it cause I couldn't coupe Pressure from these people, made me do some things I didn't know Now I'm 21 but I don't wanna fuckin live no more" I can't find the motivation for the things I used to enjoy I used to love doing sports or going out and Now I just prefer to lay in bed and not really do anything Now I saw the tears and they were droppin' down like waterfall Told me all her stories, about the bruises on her body no She said she felt trapped, and couldn't find a way to let it go I'm just sitting listening and shit got me emotional Told her all the things I should've told myself a while ago You should leave this place and never look back cause it's fucking cold Your still young so you could find the things that you been looking for Told her to hold on and she said fuck it you can keep the faith Next week I came back, and she was gone and didn't leave a trace Some told me that she was dead, and some said that she moved away then Then I looked around and found she almost took her life away Now she in coma and I didn't even know her name Started to see thing a little different now I wanna escape Most my niggas stuck and they too deep and couldn't find a way Couldn't get 'em out, and so I tried to fuckin' run away Run away and so I tried to run away Couple years go by and I'm just lookin' at myself now Looked into the mirror said "you did it now you up" now Remember all those things, but now you're climbing to the top now People heard your songs, and they say damn you are a star now Yo, remember when you were making beats back in high school? I'm proud of you G, came a long way Lastly, I just wanna tell the people that it's all okay One thing that is true is that we all got expiration dates You might feel alone, and you might think that this is just a phase Please hold on and keep it going, promise you'll see better days Now you see me smile cause you just never seen the darker days Brodie said be careful cause these niggas tryna take your place He don't even know it, but it changed my life for better ways This is only half the story, rest I'm gonna tuck away So, it sounds like it was affecting you, it it's draining you of your energy Like like your body can't be bothered, I think that's a really good way of describing it And you you're noticing sleep problems as well Do you feel better, or do you feel worse?