Devastation Gives in the Boo

I thought Life was getting easy Now that I am in my thirties But I'm Still a Floundering man There's no Other way to say it Tidal Waves try to erode it But I'm Staring At my Death There's always something buzzing In the back of my mind Why can't I just be happy Oh, I'm bursting with decay Why can't this feeling just go away There's no End to this delusion I go Where I see illusion Steep my Brain in Fictional worlds Dark is My bedroom at all times Writing Songs with some half-assed rhymes Sleeping Until I'm dead Please don't complete this sentence Don't ever tell me the odds Call the cops if I stop breathing Oh, the sunset looks okay But why can't this feeling go away I'm looking straight at you When devastation gives in the boo I tried All my damnedest To find Solace in this (Never the only one Always the lonely one though i know) I Never called you boo But I thought of you When I wanted to There Is a silent wall In between us all Can't you hear it fall There's No mistaking, I'm Just a paradigm Who's run out of time You Left a bag of bones Full of pheromones And some cursed unknowns Life Looking for a sign Trying to unwind This raveled road I'm drowning on Dragging you along Letting go before I find a way to Trap your mind I've got a great life I'm just sad all the time All of my family loves me I'm just sad all the time I've got a perfect life I'm just sad all the time All of my friends adore me I'm just sad all the time (He's got a great life) I'm just sad all the time (All of his family loves him) I'm just sad all the time I'm alive And I am numb with wanting Tell me who Tell me who I am It's contrived But I can't feel much feeling Tell me why Tell me why I can't There are days Down in the cellar Where it's dark And nothing wants to light And there are nights When I am restless Can't contain the desire fight Sunlight shines Into my dark bedroom I arise To greet the afternoon Not so fine But adequately simple I devise A plan for my room Rearrange All the pieces Find a space For every little thing Rest assured That I will rend asunder This decay I will find a way Every step Finds me going forward Every breath Strengthens my attack There's a boon In picking a direction Heading out And never looking back There's a path That winds around your ending We all choose To stick to it like glue But I'm glad That I could wrench myself free When devastation Gave in the boo