Babysitters (feat. Jonah Armitage)

Held up to the wall At my third babysitters Looking for a draw But I did not get a second To gather my thoughts about the light that I was feeling Always stuck processing my minds true fevers Ture flaws That I did not yet discover Fleeting identity as I was pushed in front for cover And punished Rushing heart filled with rubbish And I'm just left to discover the monster restless and waiting And I attack all my friends At that point I know I sinned So I cannot win But we all just make our mistakes and keep on going Because reform is not what we are looking for its the self awareness To know when it's going on And maybe one day I can channel it into song But not that Disney shit it's all about the marathon Making all the money just able to go along Stealing all the number ones like an Olympic champion And I'm still held down Judged by the future Or maybe it's my thoughts That made me bad at being more than what I want Flaws they form from the get go Babysitters taught me to let go My mind always on the menu My time always for someone else' soul Flaws they form from the get go Babysitters taught me to let go My mind always on the menu My time always for someone else' soul Tuck me into bed after a movie from the blockbuster Only nine years old, I was sad I couldn't fuck her She like board games how could I not love her Boyfriend would come over after I got tucked up in the covers Twenty bucks a night just so my mom could go out We would order pizza and play hungry hippos on the couch Got me sad as shit Damn I miss the bitch She quit being my babysitter when I bit the bitch yeah One night she tried to make me go to sleep So I threw a temper tantrum and came down with my teeth Grounded four weeks no more watching TV Ain't thought about her in year, 'till I hopped on this EP There was Marla, Shayna and Kate Eating craft dinner while I'm watching anime Then there was Dolly, Alicia and May Bad bitches, and they wanna stay it's ok they Mad me into the man that I now am Looking round, wanted all the shit that I can't have Followed on the IG the bitch ain't even add back Was just feeling nostalgic for the sight of the fat ass but I'm on my own shit, ahead of my time Going platinum next century When they look back at my rhymes yeah Punchlines like Chapelle I could never tell how every line I write fine and this shit going so but I Flaws they form from the get go Babysitters taught me to let go My mind always on the menu My time always for someone else' soul Flaws they form from the get go Babysitters taught me to let go My mind always on the menu My time always for someone else' soul