Hate

I feel alone, I feel disowned I feel like everybody left and I am on my own I feel the pressure, my own expectations I am held down by all of your insinuations Sometimes I wake up in hate And it really bothers me cause I don't wanna be this way But I see these people that I really like And I think for a minute I don't want em in my life Am a right? In assuming that they're rooting for my downfall No I'm not but still I'm torn like a rag doll Answer to the call, pick up the phone, hello? Feeling like I gonna break, wanna be mellow This isn't good, I don't think I should, talk to anybody I might knock on wood Just to get out my intensity Cause I think I have a propensity To get just a little PSYCHO Maybe I'm in a bad light tho I know it's wrong but still I'm right tho Maybe I shouldn't say that this is my own payback No hi-hat where am I going with this? I shot a bullet but I think that I missed I shot for the stars, I aimed at the moon I got burnt by the sun I got mocked by you And it's weird cause I heard that you said I deserved it I didn't hear it but I know people that heard it Sikadellic told me, he told me that you lied He told me that you don't deserve to even be Alive I don't want to believe it, I don't believe it's true But everything he told me's really changed my view of you I feel this hate, I don't know what to say I'm pulling out my hair I'm trying to stay sane I sit in agony, trying to contain Writing, I'm biding, my time against this hate I keep a journal, of all of your offenses I put them all in songs and then I scratch them off the list I'm feeling, upset, I'm feeling, degraded I lay in, my bed, I really, do hate this This isn't right, I should, rest This anger, makes me, feel depressed This, really, is a, dangerous cycle Really uptight, but not, hyped I, keep doing, what I can to resist But then I see your name on the list And I have this urge to sound off Honestly it happens often Hate Chaos Hate I feel this hate, I don't know what to say I'm pulling out my hair I'm trying to stay sane I sit in agony, trying to contain Writing, I'm biding, my time against this hate Divided pick a side, I stand up then I scream I live my life in chaos and you never hear a thing Fear, why do do, keep me from my calm? I don't really know, but I know that this is wrong I feel this hate, I don't know what to say I'm pulling out my hair I'm trying to stay sane I sit in agony, trying to contain Writing, I'm biding, my time against this hate Don't think I can take much more, sitting hiding behind a locked door I can't hide my irritation had it so long it is ancient I, I'm fine, really it doesn't bother me I wish they could have fixed this when they went in to operate Maybe this is a result of everything that happened Maybe this is a result of all the angry rapping It really was insidious I know that I'm irate It crept up slowly, and now I'm full of hate I feel this hate, I don't know what to say I'm pulling out my hair I'm trying to stay sane I sit in agony, trying to contain Writing, I'm biding, my time against this hate