Mind/Time Wasted

I ain't celebrate till I go on contemplate If the way in living is only here to go and composite I got all these people talking to me tryna conversate Tryna take away my power like they gonna try to confiscate Inside I keep in my state of mind I can rise Above all the other people tryna hold onto my binds tryna keep me trapped inside But I find it don't work if inside my heart I gone keep on trying Take one step then you look at me Putting on a smile just to look happy All these little hating be botching my name, botching my fame They be watching my fade, watching my trade But I ain't fade away, I save my plate, find a way to say I keep them sharp like a razor blade I changed the game, I change the ways, I pave the way I'm never going down think it's safe to say I keep it going like a rutter, but you know I never stutter I keep on mutter and mutter the word Got my boys right out the gutter, you ain't gonna be my brother All these fake friends its a clutter how absurd I keep it fly like a bird, you're forgetting the words I'm a doctor cause you know this disease has been cured Cause its infecting everybody because their brains have turned to zombies And it's making their speech becoming slurred These people they losing their mind They used to be wasting their time In a box, I am confined But I broke out of my binds These people they losing their mind They used to be wasting their time In a box, I am confined But I broke out of my binds I was a prisoner but I broke out and I am no longer trapped You better rest now cause I think I have snapped I gonna put my name right on the map Wait till this rap game collapse It gone collapse but its a relapse, going straight to the max It never be stopping never stopped in its tracks But your hit with the facts, going up this and that It going up so much it be higher than tax This rap game is the last thing I have left And this torture keep my heart beating my chest I ain't living just to be writing some checks I ain't stopping cause I'm gone tryna be next And I spit on a track, while you give up and you gone quit that is that Cause it's harder than what you expected Your ego projected the negative that you never projected Cause you know when revenge is enacted planed out It's protracted to make sure you know these feelings are acted Regretting your decision and those feelings are retracted But you can't take them back cause those words already impacted And they got their own feeling that they are feeling attacked with And you try to go and fix it but it's already been ejected You try to go mend but you feeling rejected You gone keep on trying until you distracted This is might be the life that I'm living but it's a tactic Oo I wanna be famous Oo I wanna be known But that motivation is not how you make it think like that you gotta go Cause I don't do this for fame and attention I do this to hop on a track and go venting I do this cause I enjoy making creating so soon one day I'll be cemented in this world of pain that gone be scented These people they losing their mind They used to be wasting their time In a box, I am confined But I broke out of my binds These people they losing their mind They used to be wasting their time In a box, I am confined But I broke out of my binds The chains cannot hold me The game has not sold me The words in my head they can't stop me from knowing But I'll keep on trying my ego ain't dying I'm just going up Cause you know soon I'll be flying, it will be worth it I hope I ain't lying The last thing I have left it's a long way its silent I got a bad feeling about it I got a bad feeling about it