Martyr II (feat. Nyx)

Running from December I can't face the winter The cold won't numb the heartache Still I soldier another day I’ve been sick of being paranoid ever since a young age Living like computer games looking for an update Thought I'd buy my mom a car and move her out someday And now I think about it Crisp Linen's such a dumb name I hope I get enough hate To be kinda famous one day I kinda felt that way but nowadays I got enough faith To move a mountain help me out 'cause this shit is in the way Anxiety, depression feel like I'mma suffocate 'Cause I dont think everyone that Says that they know me have taken a moment to really get every fact And happy ain't calling me back Happy ain't a person or a feeling or a moment it's a place you're at And where the fuck am I right now? In the middle of the desert least I'm high right now I've been tryna tell the Lord don't let me die right now 'Cause I'mma take those angel wings and I'mma fly right down Fuck that I'm out In the reality shroud Meet my demons they battle me fill my head like a cavity Promise me I'll be happy with thoughts of leaving the crowd If my feet fail me now guaranteed I'm still leaving the ground Hope I'm evening out Every evil thing I've done that even eats at me now She still believes in me now So taking music out of me's like taking beef out a cow, word And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed I'm looking back while I am running from December And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed I'm looking back while I am running from December I'm perpendicular perfectly purposed purple herb I've mastered tincture Bourbon just serves to sooth the nerves And if we're hangings off the words I'd rather shoot the verbs Guess we're killing all this time Before it kills us first I found purpose searching for something to do for her Imagine how I feel when I just end up losing her 'Cause it was really way too soon for her Guess the least that I could do is write something that's true for her You put the edge on my weapons You are the strength of my essence You are my everything blessing I know it's better in heaven But I feel like I've just been cheated out my life goals 'Cause the times I wronged you I was only tryna right those Last thing she said to me was on an iPhone Drive safe and now I face a long ride home More love, more strength, more life I love you mom I know it's alright And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed I'm looking back while I am running from December And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed I'm looking back while I am running from December Running from December I can't face the winter The cold won't numb the heartache Still I soldier another day