Midnight

I don't really know what I want To talk about I don't really know what I want To share out load The road is blocked except it's Not because I just jot this Thought and that thought I don't get caught I slaughter the beat Until there's something I meet That needs to seep out And I don't doubt it'll come out But be proud What you found And stay ground Don't drown Turn that frown upside down Put on your crown and go to Town Don't take it face down Just rock with the sound At midnight my brain likes to Fight It's decides now is just right Doesn't matter I need to sleep Tonight So I go sit and write Try not to bite my lip off Or chew my head off My ability is sliding off I feel as useless as a moth aiming For the sun How long until I'm done and Reach for the gun For right now I'm having fun And if one day I won that day Will be none My back breaking from two tons Of responsibilities I took it all Because I believed I had the Ability But silly me Oh gee It turns out they did not feed They breed and leave me Make us believe it's me But it's you And only if I knew But I was a kid what was I Supposed to do How about my two, three half Sisters We're just quitters Their just hitters This shit is giving me the jitters And it's bitter sweet Because the People that know me Probably don't realize how lonely I really am Caught up in this plan to ascend So I can suspend the disbelief Because this would have helped Me When my heart was exploding Decoding All of my family eroding A coating of lie with a sprinkle of Truth Ah Just what I'm used to Isn't that what you used to do Or am I lying to them too Oh you believe me now Try again Thank you heaven for letting me In After committing this sin