Finding

Finding allot out all about myself All the reasons I can't see myself For all the things I've done to fog my, eye, eye, eyes But if I've grown through all I've known It's surely shown when a new day dawns Unless I keep on wearing my disguise A vacant minded vagrant, vacating fake in oasis Awaken baseless emotions, evoking the hope in fate In a fatalist daze debating the space in the ways we raised 'em The razor it's blade emblazoned, rust colored, not oxidation Precipitation's inevitable Some days the rain'll pour But, we always pick up, move on, dry off It's the cost of doing business, just one long write-off Our station playing shaken, awaiting our reservation Trace the shape of the grace in your face, no isolation A devastation awakened in revelations we're facing But, these walls will build back up .. just a hiccup Pothole, bump in the road, let's go, no time to stop Keep on climbing from the bottom to the top Cause life is a clock, and when it clicks, they tick, we tock My wrist, my watch, my props, my car propped on some cinder blocks But gotta keep up appearance, that's why the clearance Is so low and why I scrape at every bump in the road I know, it's not the wisest, disguises could never hide us They deride us, our abiders provide us with love to guide us To find us, we plus the minus, negating, we jump behind us To see ourselves from a different point of view And if we find us, I promise to hold my tightest And remind us it was always me and you Finding allot out all about myself All the reasons I can't see myself For all the things I've done to fog my, eye, eye, eyes But if I've grown through all I've known It's surely shown when a new day dawns Unless I keep on wearing my disguise Who am I... well, that depends who you ask Each individual may have seen me in a different mask Certainly through different shades of glass each persona fading fast Always changing from the next day to the last Just to break from the past Naw, the truth is, I'm as static as they come Statuesque, no not pretty, just stagnant, never run Barely walk, but I talk, well, if I know you well Cause I'm shy? No that's social anxiety, can't you tell? People used to think that I was stuck up Me myself, always thought I was a ____ up But that's how it goes, and now I know, so now I can grow If I can just convince myself get up out of the hole, and go That's when my fear kicks in, gets out of control Cause control is in my hands and I'm not letting it go You know, social situations facing strangers face to face and Always bracing for abasement, something stupid, probably say it Awkward silence, that's my station, tune the dial in and play it And by they way, how's the weather out today? But, social anxiety aside, I got allot on my mind I got allot left to find, I need to swallow my pride If I'm ever gonna follow new strides And get myself up out this hole where I hide So we'll see how it goes, day by day as my story unfolds Unmask myself and push up out of my comfort zone Finding allot out all about myself All the reasons I can't see myself For all the things I've done to fog my, eye, eye, eyes But if I've grown through all I've known It's surely shown when a new day dawns Unless I keep on wearing my disguise