Iconic (Natural)

I've been thinking a lot lately Have I made the right choice Am I happy my minds telling me one thing But my heart says otherwise I am not divine but I'll waste your time Can't help saying this isn't me You don't know yourself Quit being somebody else Your heart lies to you it makes you feel A certain way But deep down you know I'm the ones pulling the strings I don't feel the way I should I need love Now I've got it can that just be enough I don't want to be judged Just want some time to myself I don't wanna have the fame and attention I just wanna be me I feel like I'm losing my chance To do something for the better Feeling more lost than ever before This is what I ask myself Losing sleep, just to keep it real Late nights, are the worst for me Because I let everything get to me Sometimes I think back to the old days And the conversations I had with the old me I used to be better but now I'm broken Everything I say is on repeat Seems like I'm stuck in a loop Somethings not right in my mind 3:09AM and I laying in bed thinking of you I pray to god because I don't know what to do Cut too deep and left me scarred Too many thoughts through my brain I hope that you are satisfied with the way you've made me feel I feel betrayed Used and played Like a card I tell myself lies because That's all that helps these days Feels like I'm alone and will be forever Hope that I find love eventually Thought you would be the one Turns out I was wrong Don't knock on my door Because I ain't answering I'm not gonna let you have the chance to hurt me Oh so you don't think I'm real Okay well tell me If I'm not real what am I spitting? I'm the realest of them all Can't stop me I share my issues No hiding Can't take me down