Questions / Fear

How does the moon control the ocean In between the waves? How does the room become emotion That I can't contain? How does the truth provoke annulment For my selfish gains? How do I overdose on ibuprofen Through the pain? What if I die before my rap career Is off the chain? What if I walk before the masses Say I'm kind of lame? What if I try to go to college Get my MBA And minor is psychology To tell my friends they're all insane? Why do my exes never call? That's not because I care Because I know I'm better off Just sometimes I'm less aware But then sometimes I risk it all I take the chance to get involved It's over now, I feel resolved, shoot Where do we go when it's gone? How do we know when it's finished? How do we live when it's not? What if I'm swimming in orange juice And pulp is a god? What if religion is fiction And everybody forgot? Everybody forgot Everybody forgot Everybody forgot Everybody forgot How does the sun produce contentment When I'm breathing air? How does the fun confuse commitment With a pinky swear? How do you run when all you love Is bound to disappear? How do you trust the very thing That's here to scare you fears? What if I chose to be The smallest person of my peers? What if I downed a forty ounce of Wine, coke, and beer? What if I cried, but when I did I never shed a tear? What if I died when I was younger? Then I might appear Why do my exes never call? That's not because I care Because I know I'm better off Just sometimes I'm less aware But then sometimes I risk it all I take the chance to... I mean, shoot You know where I'm going with this Where do we go when it's gone? How do we know when it's finished? How do we live when it's not? What if I'm swimming in orange juice And pulp is a god? What if religion is fiction And everybody forgot? Everybody forgot Everybody forgot Everybody forgot Everybody forgot I'm scared of snakes, scared of heights And everything unknown I'm scared of bad movies As Above and So Below I'm scared to face my rejection I'm scared to make it known I'm scared of anything that Isn't what I used to know I'm afraid to make mistakes That change the way I live I'm afraid to say the things That shape how I exist I'm afraid to state my faith And face the criticism I'm afraid the government Is just a prison system And now I'm fearful That I'll never quite figure out How to conquer my depression And my constant doubt How to handle my anxiety And my devout enthusiasm You can see it start to Water down (Down, down) I'm afraid that I'll Never be who I was made to be And I'm afraid that I'll Never see the things I need to see And I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid That no matter what I do, I will never be okay Ever be okay, ever be okay, ever be okay That I'll never be okay, never be okay Never be okay, never be okay That I'll never be okay, never be okay Never be okay, never be okay That I'll never be okay, never be okay Never be okay, never be okay Yeah, we don't want to do anything to scare your children That's the last thing we want to do We don't want to scare anybody