Eastern Morning

Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past The tightness is firm And then it fades slightly Resurfaces again I'm breathing too softly Forgot how to breathe And it should be obvi So scattered in my thoughts And it's panic around me Uncomfortable in my skin I sit there intense Intense conversation But I can hardly listen These people around me Probably think I'm tripping No just sadly I'm think unorthodox I'm a hollow body Feeling kind of gaudy But wet and soggy Dry me up and flog me It's forming around me Power of an army Taking my will And my own intuition How can I believe In this made up fiction Go into the world And it sucks me dry And I sigh and I cry now Just to get by Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past Emotionally vacant Or strait up empath Two extremes And wrestling with aftermath I flip and I flop One day and can't stop From the next to the next Till I rest and drop Am I hyper focused Or ADD Or is it caused By anxiety My brain can freeze And then pop off Like a tick on the clock Switching on and off Frozen in thought And struck by doubt Chemically induced On what I'm about It's up and down And up and down Come on kid Now where ya found I feel so embarrassed And I can converse Unlike how I used too With bottled up hurt It's foaming at the top Time to spray it all around I gave it a few shakes Now I'ma slam it on the ground Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past A season change And then I get grouchy Narcissistic ways now Clogging up the lobby The sun goes down And my brain gets darker Troubling thoughts That make me flounder Lost in my ways And lost in my focus Like a dark spell It's Hocus-pocus Try to brush it off And I look to the sun But the eastern morning Sky is gone Grayish hue That's overcast Full and dull And even that won't last Into full darkness Into the void Into the blackness Come on boy It's not that bad Why are you tripping Am I wasting my time Is anybody listening My voice is kind And no one hears me Just eating at my breathe And the sky is empty Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past Heavy in heart Need to breathe deeper Take a look around And scared to use my eyes Tightness in my chest And ways of an empath Crashing in my thoughts With the waves of my past