Solo (feat. Cynthia)

Ayo Life can treat us all so cold But if you really think I’m the exception Then you really don’t know I think it’s obvious, I’m not really a people person And animals as well, the opposite of Stephen Irwin You think when I’m offstage, I party every weekend Actually I’m only with myself instead and weepin’ I see on Snapchat my friends have me uninvited So I gotta make plans, you think I fucking like this And when I seem ‘em, it feels off, brewing trusting issues Think they’ve been using me, I feel like such a big fool 'Cause afterwards when I go home I just feel low There's no point of pretending friends when they're the real foe To get in sync with a new group takes more than adjusting I hate the fact that you have to be normal or nothing Overall, my list of problems just grows Meanwhile my best friend is out on the opposite coast What am I gonna do about this, shit, I don’t know Like a Clint Eastwood outlaw, tonight I ride solo When the curtains close I just feel solo No one knows 'Cause no one cares As the world turns slow It just feels so cold No one knows 'Cause no one’s there You think 'cause people know me then I’m viewed on a pedestal But really they talk down to me, I feel so pressured though They don’t take you seriously when you’re fat and 5'7" And in defense, I just have my tongue as my weapon But why can’t I drop this weight as much as I drop rhymes That’s why I refuse to smile because I’m not fine I wanna punch this mirror, I hate my own reflection I look like shit and on the inside I have no connection I stay reclusive so that I could just avoid my problems Because I can get as paranoid as Pac was So sometimes I don’t even leave the house for days And when I step outside, I just walk out in shame I’m so fucking lazy with the time I have I’m wastin’ I procrastinate on my own procrastinations And nobody’s picking up, I got no hope That’s why nobody even knows that I’m so low When the curtains close I just feel solo No one knows 'Cause no one cares As the world turns slow It just feels so cold No one knows 'Cause no one’s there You think I’m living that high life You think everything is fine But the truth is, I’m falling apart From the pain that I’m holding inside It’s hard to survive in this cold world When nobody’s on your side And all I am asking of you Is to give me some of your time I know that the world does not revolve around me It’s never good things when people talk about me Especially the fake friends, I think they all just clown me I’m a fucking mess, I don’t say that often proudly I stay unfiltered, but to a certain degree 'Cause there’s been times where it does more hurting I see 'Cause you can’t say what’s on your mind consequence free That’s why I think my biggest problem is me So over the years, I have built this guilt You can say, "don’t worry”, but I feel this still Can I change out of habit? I don’t know Don’t need the spirits to know that I feel my soul low When the curtains close I just feel solo No one knows 'Cause no one cares As the world turns slow It just feels so cold No one knows 'Cause no one’s there