12 A.M.

Okay it's late at night wiping my eyes It's sometime in 2009 Little me sippin' on kool aid Maybe I was 4 or 5 Ridin' in the car with daddy Strapped into my carseat Lookin out the window thinkin much Like cars are so neat As a youngin This time had me so blunted Young and wild looked around Why do these cars surround So many thoughts inside Thinking about life and time I was so young Kept on thinking Why does life move so fast Tires screeching sound unleashing Mind is racing cars are chasing Didn't know what we were facing So much I was tracing I was scared As the Headlights glared Tires started to slash I was shocked just once we crashed This moment caught my cries My life just flashed before my eyes My daddies yelling at the driver Still this memory is dyer The second slammed just like the car door It's really poor Every thought the time just came And hit me hard and it's assured Police pulling to the curb Saying this is so absurd Checking out the cars front Why does this feel like a stunt It was such a dark thrill All I could do was just sit still I think about that night a lot I'm still feeling super distraught It seems like no one gets it These times make me feel shorter I flash back many times From my post traumatic stress disorder Anything triggers it So much like things bigger than loss It grabs me by the throat Like thoughts of suicide I come across I'm sobbing really hard It scared me really bad It's odd to realize It's true it's hard I didn't know what to do The fact is all the time We take test then get the lesson Everyday it feels so hard I write to take out my aggression I never second guessed that I would live a happy life I get it stuff can happen But it's true to me I felt so sadden We learn from our mistakes But trust me that's the bright of life We're here to learn our lessons For the driver there class is in session Reliving close to end I try to help myself with speeches Sweet G I here that all the time I love it though It preaches How many say they feel it I know theres those here who see it Memories flying like glass That shattered in the time that's passed Drunk drivers hit the gas It adds onto the pain I have I talk about it cause it's real Stuff happens but that's the deal But look this story's true And it was tough but I'm still here My time is right and life extends All on the clock at 12 A.M