GROWING PAINS

And I just wanted to be heard But didn't know how to speak And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And I just wanted to be heard But didn't know how to speak And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything Sometimes I wish that I was someone else It's more often than not Fuck, I might be selfish but I'm never satisfied with the love I already got Trapped in a box, in this shell, sick of me and myself Only evil lurkin round me is my thoughts It's hard to get up some days, l started losing my faith and I don't know why You think you know me? Bitch you don't know nothin bout me The crack up on my shades, and the window right behind it I been sippin on the finest, reminiscing on the times when We was young, if I knew how it would be I would've never grown up And please don't tell me that I'm slipping baby Drive me crazy when I hear it Its not you, I been acting real dismissive lately Shit been waning on my spirit I'm still chasing the past, like I'm racing for last Put my faith in you, you put my heart in the trash Now I'm wasting my time, wishing you'd take me back Guess I was missing the signs that you ain't love me like that So are you satisfied, with me outta your life I was so damn wrong, to picture you by my side And now that picture is cracked, and we just left it at that I won't forget what we had, but I guess this is goodbye Lately, I been feeling jaded Lately, feel like shit been piling up and I hate it Missing days we had the chalk on the pavement Now I'm stressing something new on the daily It's crazy Straight edge, but I know I'm bending Like maybe it really relieve the tension But I don't wanna deal with my dads resentment So I'm penning something 'bout the old days Hoping it take me back to my old ways Ripping out another note page People near me acting so fake I been telling 'em that shit is so played Growing up isn't all it's made out to be Ain't even solace in counseling So I'm looking out over this balcony Maybe I'll jump And when I close my eyes, I hope the worlds still there Cause if I'm speaking truly, it seems like nobody cares And I wont chase after you I can't lockdown anything My faults and flaws bulletproof They in and out like the waves And you were supposed to heal me from my internal bleeding Fuck Wanted a table for two But you just got one for three And I was gunning for you But you were caught losing me And I just wanted to be heard But didn't know how to speak And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And I just wanted to be heard But didn't know how to speak And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything And now I'm somebody else And that didn't change anything Yeah