Mum, I'm Scared

I’m so proud of you I love you so much I know you’re scared, but it will all be over soon I remember all the times we used to talk Talk to me like I’m your son again I miss the way you talked I’m by myself again I remember whispering in your ear Mum, I’m scared Dreaming that one day you’ll disappear Mum, I’m scared I’m not old enough to face my fears Mum, I’m scared Yeah, I’m scared Yeah, I’m scared, Yeah Cuz It started off when I was born in 2004 I knew my family loved me, but I knew I wanted more Asking all the questions but I’d never get an answer Now I’m full of pain and its spreading like a cancer If you were here today, tell me, would you be proud Never show emotion cuz I know I’m not allowed I’m not scared to talk, so I’m shouting out aloud At my funeral yeah, I’m just hoping for a crowd Lost my mind, never felt so weak Cuz I’m so scared no I can’t speak I won’t stop now cuz I’ve come so far This isn’t a goodbye more like an au revoir I remember whispering in your ear Mum, I’m scared Dreaming that one day you’ll disappear Mum, I’m scared I’m not old enough to face my fears Mum, I’m scared Yeah, I’m scared Yeah, I’m scared, So scared, Yeah I got demons running loose inside my head Mum, I’m scared Run back to the coffin, that’s my bed Mum, I’m scared I don’t understand how I’m not dead (Not dead yet) Mum, I’m scared Yeah, I’m scared So scared, yeah Losing my mind when I hear your name! (hear your name) I don’t understand why you left me Why Cuz I’m so scared of losing you So please don’t go, don’t leave me now Cuz I’m so scared, so scared of you Why Yeah you know that I’m terrified of you I’m terrified So scared yeah I’m so scared Yes, I’m terrified