Life Memo

Back in the 90's when I first started I wasn't interested in being an artist Just interested in talking the hardest So I wrote bars that were harder than most kids Did they like it, I guess so Next thing I know I'm on a radio show doing sets with a man with a mac and a shank And a bulletproof vest on Dickhead I've still got the same vest hanging up on a rail So I can laugh out loud Thinking of the times when I nearly fell down Thanks to my nan and my girl I'm still here now Where's everybody else I found out they only cared for themselves I could have gone jail I could have been killed Hey, I'm just being real I've got them angels on my shoulders Them demons on my mind Butterflies in my stomach Devil creeping up behind Am I coming Am I going I can barely decide I feel like I've been inside this moment my entire life Back in the early 2k's I was living life out of a suitcase No wages when it came payday No wonder I got a little feisty Giving all that I had to my Dad Thinking he was doing up the family pad But instead he was drinking and getting mad and beating on me for the love that I got from my nan Where's the pride in that 17, getting licked down by a man I used to be his number one fan then he wondered why I swapped out my hand Too many skeletons not enough closets You can't backpay them days with your wallet Fabrication, I'm not on it I'm just being honest I've got them angels on my shoulders Them demons on my mind Butterflies in my stomach Devil creeping up behind Am I coming Am I going I can barely decide I feel like I've been inside this moment my entire life Back in 2k12 Got my first glimpse of hell Got a call from the police on my cell Allegations made involving a girl Made arrangements, went station, gave details One true take of events bought up memories I was trying to forget Inside, I was taking a beating Physically, mentally, sick of that feeling So I drew for the books on self healing Rememebered why I was here and breathing Life's meaning When you're mentally focused there's no better feeling In a nutshell, I got stronger They used to push me around but no longer Because once I defeated them monsters I could achieve anything I wanted I've got them angels on my shoulders Them demons on my mind Butterflies in my stomach Devil creeping up behind Am I coming Am I going I can barely decide I feel like I've been inside this moment my entire life Snap, it's the present moment But I feel I've been under hypnosis People thinking I'm crazy like Moses, crazy thing is I am but they think it's a joke thing I'm alone in this dessert Trying to get back home to the blessed If they physically saw what I actually see they would mentally know what a mess is But I deal with that like I've done My mind and my five senses combine to be one They say there's strength in unity but I don't see anyone Some say I should have gone Specsavers But I put no I's in haters Heard too many lies, had fake friends That's why bop when I stroll Now it makes sense I've got them angels on my shoulders Them demons on my mind Butterflies in my stomach Devil creeping up behind Am I coming Am I going I can barely decide I feel like I've been inside this moment my entire life