Late Night Thoughts (feat. J Gill)

Why is it so easy to hate, and hard to love For these are the days, where we start to judge We slash a person who follows their dream And then we have the nerve to call it critique We think we know what each outcome is With other paths and avenues We default to ugly busted bad attitudes Real talk I struggle, I still do that too I think my DNA is mistaken Sometimes I'm overly pessimistic cause I wish could change up my love language When nobody uses words to lift us up And that real love is it presumptuous To want to turn some of that intuition up In my headphones my name is fisticuffs When it comes to the superficial ones Now I have a mission that I can see It's no longer to rise in this industry To risk sobriety, and let online comments astonishingly define my identity Yeah I got drunk off this Yeah I got drunk off clicks Yeah I got drunk off views Man I got drunk off of comments and all of my friends approval Making satire, just something to do I knew that I was good at it, but I was running on fumes So when I stopped, I felt so unsuccessful Being someone nobody wanted to mess with But did I learn my lesson, at the time I don't think I did Why was I afraid to move and do something I loved instead I don't know I don't know if I don't know I don't know if I don't know if I'll survive what I'm going through I don't know I don't know if I don't know I don't know if I don't know if I'll survive what I'm going through No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy no turning back now No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy tell em' giving up that easy hey No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy no turning back now No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy tell em' giving up that easy hey I've seen this enough, we need to discuss Critique should only be from those people you trust Now a days opinions hit you from all angles If you start chasing approval you brain will re-construct Even right now as I'm thinking of releasing this song I keep wondering what people will think of it, ugh I'm defeated when I finally read what someone thinks Can someone please bring me the tweezers for once Cause the negative words, are splinters, can they ever be cured Once they've entered you And the very thing that is keeping me up Is that I've dealt my share of splinters too So do not worship me I'm still in debt to the worst of me I've been there done that it's happened Cut people off inadvertently Anxiety can never be a fairy tale Depression is a terrible narrative When you're working to preserver To gain a confidence that is independent of circumstance Right now I'm tight, cause I'm unknown But as soon as I'm known then I'm annoying So for right now I'm just enjoying the peace Before they discover the need to try to destroy me Popularity isn't all that it seems But it can be the byproduct of the dream So when I'm alone in the future I can only guess what I'll probably sing I don't know I don't know if I don't know I don't know if I don't know if I'll survive what I'm going through I don't know I don't know if I don't know I don't know if I don't know if I'll survive what I'm going through No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy no turning back now No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy tell em' giving up that easy hey No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy no turning back now No I'm not no I'm not no I'm not Giving up that easy tell em' giving up that easy hey