Black Bubbles

Stop faking it You know what Im talking about You know where this goes out That thing called anxiety That thing you fake to get the clout But thats not all You probs gonna question I finally make a call That other thingo called depression Oh yeah thats well and good You can't get ahold of drugs So you get creative and make homemade shit Breathing in Nitro from a race cars' hood Trying to be lit, by acting so edgy That shit is lame Imma be aggressive for once You havent experienced the pain 24 hours in Singapore, my body felt poor Lets take it 2 years back, I was lying on the floor 3 days more without any sleep, theres plenty more 10pm I could feel it kicking in, 12 I started shaking Is this what your faking At 2am, i could see the pain, I could literally visualise it Climbing up the walls and shit, black bubbles driving me insane Hotel skyscraper, city lights giving me a migraine Now and then i'd start to shake, in the pit of my stomach, I wanted to put a bullet in my brain Had a shower at 3, and then went back to hell 2 more hours of that shit, and my eyelids fell You could never tell While you were smoking trees I could barely breathe There was no smoke Just my mind and me Its sad to say that it was all in my head I honestly wanted to eat lead, Im cross-bred 2 months later every wednesday I had to see a shrink 60 minutes for one term, it pushed me to the brink I would lie there on this green couch Explaining shit that made me sound like a grouch There was stuff in my throat, but there wasn't really It was triggered when I eat, to much panic, so much heat Fathers day night was ruined thanks to me Thanks to me with the stupid shit that held me back The shit that stopped me sleep The shit that slowed my peak Like glen said its just a phase, i powered through it I felt so weak, but now I'm strong so screw it Im one of the few to do it, as in do I mean not use Anxiety as an excuse Im going deeper than I ever have before All you kids act like you've knocked at deaths door You got a roof over your head, you privileged , and you get fed Your fully functioning but your acting like your brain dead I been through it I been at it Bitch I've felt it Ive done dealt with it A year and a half Man it was hard So many limits I feel like Im scarred All of you fakers Now I'm a wildcard Man Ive got balls of steel Feelings on a fishing reel Hurting like it was unreal It was like I talked to the devil and I made a deal Covering it up, covering it up I swear I had the worst luck Shaking so bad, mum had to tuck me up 24 hours in Singapore, my body felt poor Lets take it 2 years back, I was lying on the floor 3 days more without any sleep, theres plenty more 10pm I could feel it kicking in, 12 I started shaking Is this what your faking At 2am, i could see the pain, I could literally visualise it Climbing up the walls and shit, black bubbles driving me insane Hotel skyscraper, city lights giving me a migraine Now and then i'd start to shake